Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Boring

Hello world!!!

I haven't been blogging a lot.. but truth be told it is because I just haven't had a lot going on. Life is sort of cruisin by for me lately, so there isn't really anything to say...

I guess I'll tell you a little about what I've been doing to gear up for Christmas. Well, we (aka me and my roommate Amy) decorated the house and I decided that it needed a little something more. So, I decided to make a garland of ornaments. Let me tell you that if you have never made a garland before, it can be challenging. What I thought would only take about a half hour, ended up taking THREE HOURS! I mean, I'm not gonna lie...it looks AMAZING. However, it took a FREAKING LONG TIME to make. We also got a little baby tree and some stocking hangers. Overall, our apartment looks pretty awesome.. although I need to clean. :S

Anywho. OH!!! So, there is this website called Mystery Joy Attack. It was something I signed up for AGES ago for kicks and giggles. Well, last night I get home and my landlord/friend calls me and tells me I got a package. I don't typically get mail at the house (we have a PO Box) so I was a little confused as to how my mail got to the house. She brings it down to me and it is a small little brown package with my name on it. It is mailed from England, and I'm like, "What the..." I open it up and what do I see???

A cute little rubber ducky eraser!!!

lol. I was so confused until I saw a little piece of paper in the bottom of the package that said it was Mystery Joy Attack. I never really thought I would ever get anything... but I totally did!!!!! :) It was def a joy attack. It is so CUTE!!!!!

Oh the awesomeness and randomness of the internet. Seriously. You never know what will happen next! Anyway--thank you Mystery Joy Attack. Your ninja-like moves purloined my gloomy mood with joy.

Until next time...


Happy
by:The Rolling Stones

Well I never kept a dollar past sunset,
It always burned a hole in my pants.
Never made a school mama happy,
Never blew a second chance, oh no

I need a love to keep me happy,
I need a love to keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.

Always took candy from strangers,
Didn't wanna get me no trade.
Never want to be like papa,
Working for the boss ev'ry night and day.

I need a love to keep me happy,
I need a love, baby won't ya keep me happy.
Baby, won't ya keep me happy.
Baby, please keep me

I need a love to keep me happy,
I need a love to keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.

Never got a flash out of cocktails,
When I got some flesh off the bone.
Never got a lift out of Lear jets,
When I can fly way back home.

I need a love to keep me happy,
I need a love to keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.
Baby, baby keep me happy.

Friday, December 10, 2010

In which our heroine discloses her "kryptonite" equivalent. :)

No, it's not old men. I just REALLY love Old School AND Blue. ;)
Anyway, random pic of the day. You're my boy Blue!!!
Aloha all.

How are you? Good I hope. It has been quite a while. :) My bad!!! You can blame work, school, and a general lack of sleep.

Sleep. I used to think it was overrated. However, as I get older, I can see that my body needs it. I can't function on two and three hours of sleep anymore.

Why, you ask. Why would someone do that to themselves.

Well, I'll let you in on a little secret.

I am addicted...to....FUN!

I can't get enough of it. I love people, I love talking to people, I love helping people, I love watching people... to me that is the most fun any one person can have. The cool thing is that I have amazingly awesome, interesting, and overall fun people as friends. Seriously. You could make a TV series about us and we would be more entertaining than the cast of Friends.

So now you know. My kryptonite is people...my people. I can't live without them. They are the awesomest and most amazing people EVER. ;)

Anyway. Christmas is coming up. This year will be an interesting Christmas. I'm trying something new, and I hope it works. I'm doing one generic gift and personalized cards. I'm pretty stoked about it. I've always done gifts for everyone... but I think this will not only save me money and some time, it will also... well, I guess that's what it does. LOL! It saves me time and money. ;)

I've been so unmotivated lately. I can't seem to focus on anything. I just don't really want to do anything. I think it's linked to my latest bout of insomnia... but I also think it's linked to some other stuff that has been going down lately...

Anywho.

Life is going pretty good. Let's get to the song for the day. This is such a cool song. My friend Andrew put this on a mixed CD for my Thanksgiving trip. I'm not going to lie... the CD was AMAZING and I truly love this song. :) Thanks Andrew!!! Some of you may not know this...but I took 4 years of French in high school and college. :) This is a SASSY song. :)

Ta Douleur
by: Camille

Lève-toi, c'est décidé
Laisse moi te remplacer
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Doucement, sans faire de bruit
Comme on réveille la pluie
Je vais prendre ta douleur
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Elle lutte elle se débat
Mais ne résistera pas
Je vais bloquer l'ascenseur...
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur
Saboter l'interrupteur
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Mais c'est qui cette incrustée
Cet orage avant l'été
Sale chipie de petite soeur ?

Je vais tout lui confisquer
Ses fléchettes et son sifflet
J'vais lui donner la fessée...
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur
La virer de la récré
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Mais c'est qui cette héritière
Qui se baigne qui se terre
Dans l'eau tiède de tes reins ?
J'vais la priver de dessert
Lui faire mordre la poussière
De tous ceux qui n'ont plus faim...
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur
De tous ceux qui n'ont plus rien
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Dites moi que fout la science
A quand ce pont entre nos panses ?
Si tu as mal là où t'as peur
Tu n'as pas mal là où je pense !

Qu'est-ce-qu'elle veut cette connasse
Le beurre ou l'argent du beurre?
Que tu vives ou que tu meures ?
Faut qu'elle crève de bonheur
Ou qu'elle change de godasses
Faut qu'elle croule sous les fleurs
Change de couleur...
Je vais prendre ta douleur
Je vais jouer au docteur
Prendre ta douleur
Je vais prendre ta douleur

Dites moi que fout la science
A quand ce pont entre nos panses ?
Si tu as mal là où t'as peur
Tu n'as pas mal là où je chante !

Lève-toi lève-toi lève-toi
Elle a envie de toi ta douleur
Elle a envie de toi ta douleur
Elle a envie de ttt ttt tt…
Get up, it's a done deal
Let me take your place
I'm going to take your pain


Gradually, without a noise
As one wakes up the rain
I'm going to take your pain
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain

She fights, she struggles,
But she won't overcome
I am going to stop the lift...
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain
Mess up the switch
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain


Well, who is she, settled down,
Such a storm before summer
Such a brat little sister?


I'm going to seize everything of hers
Her darts and whistle
I am going to spank her…
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain
Kick her out of the break
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain


Well, who is that heiress,
Who has a bath, who goes to earth
In the warm water of your back?
I'm going to deprive her of dessert
Make her bite the dust
Of those who are not hungry any more...
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain
Of those who don't have anything left
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain



Tell me what the hell science is up to
When for a bridge between our bellies?
If you're aching where you're scared
You're not aching where I think!

What does she want, that bitch?
Your cake or she eats it?
You living or you dying?
She must be full of happiness
Or change her shoes
She must be snowed under with flowers
Change your color…
I'm going to take your pain
I'm going to play at doctors
Take your pain
I'm going to take your pain



Tell me what the hell science is up to
When for a bridge between our bellies?
If you're aching where you're scared
You're not aching where I sing!

Get up get up get up
She wants you, your pain
She wants you, your pain
She wants…

Monday, November 22, 2010

Rinse and REPEAT! :)

Hello blogging world! :)

I have been feeling so scattered lately. We had an AMAZING house warming party this weekend--which was the perfect end to the craziness that was my week last week. Here is the little announcement picture I made up:



It was a SUPER awesome Hot Chocolate party. :) The theme was... marshmallows! lol. The little mallow on the announcement was the inspiration for our "directions" signs and the cookies that Amy made (with the help of our friends Wyatt and Eli. :) Thanks guys!!!) It was an amazing time--and we went to a great dance party afterward.

I had forgotten about how great REALLY GOOD guy friends can be. I mean...I have a lot of guy friends, and they are AMAZING. However, after a super awkward yet platonic situation, I now  have a better appreciation for all that is good about male friends.

I know this will come as a news flash-- but guys and girls think differently. lol.

Girls are almost too compassionate and caring for their own good. Where a girl will tell you that you look amazing in the sweater you want to buy--a guy friend will tell you that it looks...okay, and that you should keep looking. lol

Of course most of my guy friends wouldn't even GO sweater shopping with me.

GOSH WHATEVER!---Maybe some would. I don't even care anymore. lol. (That was sarcasm if you missed it. ;) )

Anywho--this blog goes out to my male friends. Thanks for being awesome and fun and willing to put up with the craziness that is my personality.

This week--Thanksgiving!

I am excited for it, but at the same time, I'm just...tired. I want to sleep for three days straight. LOL. Is that bad??? Maybe so.

I am managing myself better though. I actually have a semblance of a "schedule" now. Who would have thunk? <--- Thunk. he he he...

I haven't really been posting pictures lately. I like to blame it on the fact that I have had NO TIME at ALL to do what I love to do... aka BLOG and play video games/volleyball and basically live a life with good times on repeat. :)

I have had time however to make a HUGE leap for myself in the way of personal betterment. I'm pretty excited fro the changes that will be happening in my life. I feel like a weight is being lifted off my shoulders. Life can get better... and it is! That's the most amazing thing of all!!! :)

For my next blog--I'll be posting the pics from my AMAZING 10 year friend-iversary with Leo. :) She wrote a super sweet post about me. You guys should go to read it. HERE is the link. The title of the post is Devilish. I will tell you now that the title was a high school nick name...and that's all I have to say about that. :)

Song for the day--super appropriate for the post today.
 
Let's Hear It For The Boy
by: Deniece Williams

My baby he don't talk sweet
He ain't got much to say
But he loves me, loves me, loves me
I know that he loves me anyway.

And maybe he don't dress fine
But I don't really mind
'Cause every time he pulls me near
I just want to cheer

Let's hear it for the boy
Let's give the boy a hand
Let's hear it for my baby
You know you gotta understand

Whoa, maybe he's no romeo
But he's my lovin' one-man show
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Let's hear it for the boy

My baby may not be rich
He's wathcin' every dime
But he loves me, loves me, loves me
We always have a real good time

And maybe he sings off key
But that's alright by me
'Cause what he does, he does so well
Makes me wanna yell

Let's hear it for the boy
Ah--let's give the boy a hand
Let's hear it for my baby
You know you gotta understand

Oh, maybe he's no romeo
But he's my lovin' one-man show
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Let's hear it for the boy

'Cause what he does, he does so well
Makes me wanna yell

Let's hear it for the boy
Ah--let's give the boy a hand
Let's hear it for my baby
You know you gotta understand

Oh, maybe he's no romeo
But he's my lovin' one-man show
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Let's hear it for the boy

Let's hear it for the boy
Hear it for my man
Let's hear it for my baby (until fade)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Dedication

Aloha Everyone!!!

Many of you that know me may also know or have heard of my cousin Leo. :)

Leo two Halloweens ago as Snookie/She-Ra. :)

You may also know that I am the only girl in my family. Having only brothers has been AWESOME, but my "sisters by choice" are FREAKING AMAZING. I have (about) four of them, and Leo is the second one. :)

Anyway--this blog post is dedicated to her because it is our ten year anniversary of friendship this Saturday. Happy Ten Year Friendship Birthday Anniversary Leo!!! We gon' ROCK the hi--zzouse tomorrow night! :) Watch out Roy's! lol!

No, we aren't crazy. We just picked a day that was roughly around the time we met. lol!

Let me tell you a little about us. We met randomly at church one Sunday and were basically best friends from the get-go... actually, when I think about it, all of my SBCs (sisters by choice) have started out this way. Anywho...

Leo and I have had a rough past. To sum it up, some stupid people came between us and ALMOST dissolved the friendship. When I think about it...well, let's just not think about it. Jumping forward, she and I are now besties, and I like it that way. Leo knows a LOT about me... probably more  than most people know about me. She and I talk about EVERYTHING and we give each other awesome advice. She reads my blog as religiously as I read hers. ;) AND she LOVES the Lord and reminds me to be better than I am--which I am extremely grateful for.

I have been trying to get her to move to St. George for AGES. Hopefully that "dream" will become a reality soon. :) We're just trying to get her a job, so cross your fingers for her. :)

Anywho...To Leo-- I totally heart you.

Song for the day--a dedication to us for our 10 year. :) It makes it dually hilarious because we talked about going to V.S. as well as dinner. LOL!!! GOOD TIMES! Also--takes me back to the days where it was just GOOD music and not the garbage you hear today. A slight innuendo is all there is. Nothing about "hittin' that" or "backin' it up on me" or whatever. I miss music like this. It was in a time before cell phones and texting...when the internet was practically new, and people actually talked to each other...lol. K. I'm off the soap box. :)

Anniversary
by: Tony! Toni! Tone!

Tomorrow will come and girl, I can't wait
It's our anniversary, anniversary
The first thing I'll do is run straight to you
It's our anniversary, anniversary

It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary, Anniversary
It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary
Made for you and me

And I've only made plans to hold your little hand
It's our anniversary, anniversary
The pleasure's all mine 'cause we have seen good times
It's our anniversary, anniversary
Victoria won't be no secret at the end of the day
It's our anniversary, anniversary
A small cup of tea to you and me
It's our anniversary

All I really want to say my darling
Today is a special day we call our own
So take me in your arms and hold me
And tell me you love me
And I'll be there
For you

Do you know what today is
Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary (It's our special day)
It's our anniversary, anniversary
Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary
Made for you and me

Today is a special day
Not just any day 'cause
You can have everything you want your way
Tell your supervisor you're leaving early today
And I'm going to pay
For the rest of your day

Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary, anniversary
Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary [x2]

Today I have lots of fun stuff for you girl

Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary, anniversary
Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary
It's our anniversary
Made for you and me
I know girl
I know
It's our anniversary.

And I love you in a special way
I remember the first letter
I remember the first day

Do you know what today is?
It's our anniversary [fade]

Monday, November 8, 2010

Dreaming...

I had a dream.

It has been the first scary dream I have had in a WHILE. I mean...I have dreams. I have them all the time. However, this dream was weird and scary and disturbing. I looked up all the parts of the dream, and here is what I came up with (not particularly in order):

To see broken jewelry in your dream, signifies disappointments in achieving your goals and attaining your highest desires.

To dream that objects around you are breaking, suggests that you are under tremendous stress. The dream could be a metaphor that you are literally at your breaking point.

To dream that you are shot, represents a form of self-punishment that you may be unconsciously imposing on yourself. You may have done something that you are ashamed of or are not proud of.

To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun, suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may be feeling victimized in some situation.

To dream that you are floating in water, suggests that you have a handle on your emotions.

To dream that you are floating, but are afraid to move, suggests that you are questioning your own abilities. You are experiencing doubts in yourself.

To dream that someone is using a video camera, indicates that you are reflecting back on your past and old memories. You may be trying to learn from previous mistakes or relive the good and bad times.


Crazy, yeah??? Apparently I have a lot of self improvement to do. :)

Today's music is appropriate and AWESOME! it is from Les Miserables.

I Dreamed a Dream
from the musical, Les Miserables

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

Friday, November 5, 2010

GRRRRRRREAT!!

How are things???

They're GRRRRRRREAT!!! ;)

Thanks Tony the Tiger for making it possible for everyone to know how I feel today! :)

I am a big believer in things working out as they are supposed to. I really and truly believe that the people, place and circumstances we encounter in this life are for our benefit and are for us to learn and grow.

I was watching some old Lauryn Hill music videos. Lauryn Hill is... for lack of a better word--amazing. her voice is REAL. I have yet to hear an artist today that is up to her caliber of soul, artistic creativity, and just overall quality. Love, love, LOVE her voice and talent. She started out rough...basically being booed off stage at "Amateur Night" at the Apollo. She was only 13, but pushed through and became a musical icon.

I wish I had that kind of courage and class. I am always so worried about people accepting me for who I am. She knew who she was from the beginning...and she wasn't scared of showing people that she still had and still has more to learn.

For today, I have a music video instead of lyrics. I hope you all watch it and feel the raw beauty of why I love Lauryn Hill. :)

Video

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I know what I know...

Hello All!!!

So, If you don't know me very well, let me tell you a little tidbit about me as a friend. I am the friend that "gently" reminds you that you are being dumb when you are making a bad decision. I am the friend that will drop everything to come and help you. Whenever. I am also the friend that can be loud and obnoxious. However, I can be the friend that you confide in. Like my friend Chris said last night, "she's a vault." I really am. I know a lot about my friends, and I'm glad that they trust me enough to tell me those things.

I wasn't always like this. I like to think that I have evolved over time into this person. I am still evolving...hopefully.

I don't say this to be prideful or arrogant. I say this because I feel like sometimes people need to know who we are. They need to know how we can help them. I love this quote from one of my favorite movies, Elizabethtown:

"I don't know a lot about everything, but I do know a lot about the part of everything that I know--which is people."

I know people. My people. I think it's because I pay attention. It's not rocket science.

However, there are times when people tend to surprise me. For instance:

I have a friend of mine that was dating a huge jerk.

They broke up for a while, but they got back together and got engaged.

Well, surprise, surprise...he totally called off the engagement (with the wedding three weeks away) and left town.

I thought that I knew him better than this. I really thought that he would have stuck through, but alas he didn't.

I guess I'm surprised because although he was a jerk and super mean to her, I was hoping to see the positive potential that I saw in him. I guess people just don't see the potential in themselves...or want to achieve it.

IDK. It makes me look back at my life and remember the different relationships that I have been in. Some were really bad. A lot of them were good. :)

I feel bad for my friend, but I know that she'll bounce back from it.

We all do.

Reminiscing
by: Little River Band

Friday night, it was late
I was walking you home
We got down to the gate
And I was dreaming of the night
Would it turn out right
How to tell you girl
I wanna build my world around you
Tell you that it's true
I wanna make you understand
I'm talkin' about a lifetime plan

That's the way it began, we were hand in hand
Glenn Miller's Band was better than before
We yelled and screamed for more
And the Porter tunes "Night and Day"
Made us dance across the room
It ended all too soon
And on the way back home
I promised you'd never be alone

Hurry, don't be late
I can hardly wait
I said to myself when we're old
We'll go dancing in the dark
Walking through the park and reminiscing

[Instrumental Interlude]

Friday night, it was late
I was walking you home
We got down to the gate
And I was dreaming of the night
Would it turn out right
Now as the years roll on
Each time we hear our favorite song
The memories come along
Older times we're missing
Spending the hours reminiscing

Hurry, don't be late, I can hardly wait
I said to myself when we're old
We'll go dancing in the dark
Walking through the park and reminiscing

Monday, November 1, 2010

Who??

Aloha all!!!

So, finals are over and we can all breathe a collective sigh of relief...

>>SIGH<<

Doesn't that feel better?

I, like many of the people that did the 30 Days of Truth Challenge feel somewhat of a hole in my life now that I don't have a "directed" blog every day. However, I have decided that I will post my musings once every couple of days. I'm assuming of course that I will be mused in some way shape or form. ;)

Today I want to talk about what is on everyone's mind. The British.

What's up with them??? I mean, I'm all for bad teeth and for bloody being a bad word, but really?? What is at their core??? What is the social psyche that drives this noble people forward???

I recently watched a movie called Pirate Radio... and shortly thereafter read the Amazon sample text of a book on the subject. Apparently they like to talk about the weather as a precursor to figuring out if you would be willing to carry on a conversation with them. Good times!

However, as I was driving home today, I was musing about something else entirely. What is with the British and their fetish for combining words??? Have you ever noticed that they do that??? I came up with a list (that is in no way comprehensive) of words that the British came up with that are compromised of two or more words. They are:

Hereafter
Thereafter
Nevertheless
Hitherto
Moreover
Forthwith
Aforementioned
Posthaste

etc.

Isn't that weird? And AWESOME???!!! I am a FAN of these words and all the others that I didn't put in this list. I say we all use these words daily and bring them back! :)

Song for the day. A little ditty from the British Invasion. No, not the one that Paul Revere announced. ;) The one from the 80s. :)

I Can't Explain
by: The Who

Got a feeling inside (Can't explain)
It's a certain kind (Can't explain)
I feel hot and cold (Can't explain)
Yeah, down in my soul, yeah (Can't explain)

I said ... (Can't explain)
I'm feeling good now, yeah, but (Can't explain)

Dizzy in the head and I'm feeling blue
The things you've said, well, maybe they're true
I'm gettin' funny dreams again and again
I know what it means, but …

Can't explain
I think it's love
Try to say it to you
When I feel blue

But I can't explain (Can't explain)
Yeah, hear what I'm saying, girl (Can't explain)

Dizzy in the head and I'm feeling bad
The things you've said have got me real mad
I'm gettin' funny dreams again and again
I know what it means but

Can't explain
I think it's love
Try to say it to you
When I feel blue

But I can't explain (Can't explain)
Forgive me one more time, now (Can't explain)

(INSTRUMENTAL INTERLUDE)

I said I can't explain, yeah
You drive me out of my mind
Yeah, I'm the worrying kind, babe
I said I can't explain

Saturday, October 30, 2010

The last stretch

WOW. Well, I have literally had NO time to blog for the last three days of this challenge. I have finals this week, so it's been all about the finals. :) So, the last three days will be in this post. :)

Day 28:  What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Well, first of all, if I got someone pregnant, that would be... weird and against nature. So, I would freak out and probably turn myself into a scientific research place to be studied.

However, if I got pregnant...well, I would be scared. If I'm to the point where I would even be in a situation where I would get pregnant, there is something wrong. I am in NO PLACE to be raising a child right now. I would be terrified of being able to provide for the baby, and what about the dad. Is he going to be in the picture? What do I tell my family?

It would be insane.

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Day 29:  Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.


I hope one day to be better at self discipline. I am a party girl. I like to have fun and I like to be with people. However, I want to be able to BALANCE my life and be disciplined enough to put off the fun stuff to do things that are more important. Like laundry.

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Day 30:  A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Karyn,

So, this is the end of the truth challenge. It feels nice to be able to talk candidly about things that I have never really talked to a lot of people about. I am so happy that I could get it out.

This is the last entry, and I'm writing a letter to you...aka me, or rather, us that entails all the things that we love about ourself. lol. So here it is:

My sense of humor
My talent for music
My ability to make anyone into a friend
My ability to help people see their problems more clearly
My eyes
My legs! ;)
My compassion
My love for my family and friends
My willingness to learn new things
My testimony...even though I still feel like a fledgling in that area
My tolerance of others and their faults
My love for everyone around me
My ability to see beauty in all God's creations
My easygoing nature
My "aggressive" side

All of this and more compromise what I love about myself. Thank you for being you...aka us. ;)

--Karyn

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So, today was a Young Single Adult Conference. I LOVED it SO much! It was fantastic. The speakers were awesome, and it was great to see so many YSAs out and about. :) Today was a great day... and it keeps getting better. :)

Have a Happy Halloween. In honor of tomorrow's holiday, a Halloween song.

Thriller
by: Michael Jackson

It's close to midnight and something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight, you see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze as horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
And no one's gonna save you from the beast about strike
You know it's thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight

You hear the door slam and realize there's nowhere left to run
You feel the cold hand and wonder if you'll ever see the sun
You close your eyes and hope that this is just imagination, girl!
But all the while you hear the creature creeping up behind
You're out of time

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
There ain't no second chance against the thing with forty eyes, girl
Thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight

Night creatures calling, the dead start to walk in their masquerade
There's no escaping the jaws of the alien this time
(They're open wide)
This is the end of your life

They're out to get you, there's demons closing in on every side
They will possess you unless you change that number on your dial
Now is the time for you and I to cuddle close together, yeah
All through the night I'll save you from the terror on the screen
I'll make you see

That this is thriller, thriller night
'Cause I can thrill you more than any ghost would ever dare try
Thriller, thriller night
So let me hold you tight and share a
Killer, diller, chiller, thriller here tonight

'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
Girl, I can thrill you more than any ghost would ever dare try
Thriller, thriller night
So let me hold you tight and share a killer, thriller, ow!

(I'm gonna thrill ya tonight)
Darkness falls across the land
The midnight hour is close at hand
Creatures crawl in search of blood
To terrorize y'alls neighborhood

I'm gonna thrill ya tonight, ooh baby
I'm gonna thrill ya tonight, oh darlin'
Thriller night, baby, ooh!

The foulest stench is in the air
The funk of forty thousand years
And grizzly ghouls from every tomb
Are closing in to seal your doom

And though you fight to stay alive
Your body starts to shiver
For no mere mortal can resist
The evil of the thriller

Thursday, October 28, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 27

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Hmm. Well, I have a couple awesome things are are going well for me right now. The first one is my job. It provides me with income, so I am grateful for it. EVERYDAY.

Next is my new place. Our landlords/friends are freaking awesome, and I love the house. It smells like cookies and children's wishes. lol.

Last is my FREAKING awesome friends. They are literally what keeps me going. Sometimes I think that I am a horrible friend back to them, but they continue in our friendship, so I figure that is a good thing.

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Tonight a lot happened. I don't really want to get into it, but it's pretty crazy.

It ended well though. I got to go carve pumpkins...and I may or may not think that one of the guys I carved pumpkins with is amazing. ;)

The song for today kept me awake when I was falling asleep while trying to do homework. Thank you Janet Jackson. Your soulful and sassy tunes always perk me up.

I Get So Lonely
by:Janet Jackson

I get so lonely,
Can't let just anybody hold me
You are the one that lives in me, my dear
Want no one but you (x2)

Sitting here with my tears
All alone with my fears
I'm wondering if I have to do
Without ya
But there's no reason why

I feel asleep late last night
Crying like a newborn child
Holding myself close
Pretending my arms are yours
I want no one but you

I get so lonely,
Can't let just anybody hold me
You are the one that lives in me, my dear
Want no one but you (x2)

I still remember to the day
In fact is was a third Monday
You came along to be the one for me
Now I'm alone

Sitting here by the phone
Call and say that you're okay
So that I'll have the chance
To beg you to stay
I want no one but you

I get so lonely,
Can't let just anybody hold me
You are the one that lives in me, my dear
Want no one but you (x4)

Gonna break it down
Break it down, break it down
Gotta break it down
Break it down, break it down
Whoa

You know
That I know
That I get so lonely thinking of you
Oooh
Noo whoa nooo. . .

I get so lonely,
Can't let just anybody hold me
You are the one that lives in me, my dear
Want no one but you (x4)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 26

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so when and why

Hmmm. Well, I have to say that I have never given serious thought to ending my life. BUT, that's not really what the question was, was it?

I have given up on life. I was in that state of mind when I moved here. I just didn't see the point in trying anymore. I still feel that way sometimes, but I get over it.

I think that's one of the things I love the most about myself. Not to sound conceited or anything, but  I'm a naturally optimistic and happy person. :) I have an uncanny ability to see the bright side of any solution.

When I moved to Utah, it was the deepest funk I've ever been in, but it only lasted about a year and a half. I had residual stuff for a while, but overall, I was happy and moving forward.

Does that answer the question??? lol

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Okay. So, life is moving forward, and I really haven't had anything to day lately. Is that weird???

Lyrics for today:

Seriously
by: Katchafire

Seriously, its been a long time
Since I’ve heard from thee
Since you dropped me a line
Well I know
What you’ve been going through
And I know
What I’ve been telling you
Girl seriously give me another one
Wo yeah

I happen to know what’s gonna happen next
The rhythm will pull you into this here jam
I reckon the rhythm just can’t stop you moving
And everywhere you look people be dancing near – yeah

I don’t drive no flashy car
I don’t wear no flashy ring girl
You don’t see me trying bling bling girl yeah
Give me another one…

Monday, October 25, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 25

Day 25:  The reason you believe you’re alive today.

I think the reason I'm alive today is because I have something to do with my life still. Well, aside from church stuff, I think that I have a purpose on this earth, and that I haven't fulfilled that purpose yet.

I also think I'm here to make sure that everyone still has good times. :) People often tend to forget how to have fun and let loose. I'm here to remind them of that fact. :)

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Tonight was pretty EPIC. I DJ-ed a dance tonight. There wasn't anyone there...which was super sad for me, because I like a full house. However, there were about 12 people there that danced pretty much all night. It really was super fun and awesome.

I have realized that I can't have expectations for the people around me. I just need to accept them the way they are.

Lyrics for today is a song I played tonight. :) GREAT song and super fun to dance to!!!

Only Girl

by: Rihanna

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la

[VERSE 1]
I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya,
then imma make you swallow your pride

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel
Like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands
How to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel
Like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

[VERSE 2]
Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel
Like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands,
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

[BRIDGE]
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel
like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands
How to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...

Sunday, October 24, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 24

Day 24:  Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists)
 
I don't really know who I would want to make a playlist for. It may be a combination of tiredness and my brain being dead... but whatever. This is a truth challenge, so I guess I need to be truthful.

I suppose I'll make a playlist for the love of my life. I don't know who he will be, but it's the only thing I can think of at the moment. :S

Caught Up In the Rapture--Anita Baker

This song is on the list because I love Anita Baker...but aside from that. I think that this is a "beginning love" kind of song. So caught up in the moment that you feel like you can achieve anything. :)

The Best of My Love--'Ale'a

This is a great cover of the original Eagles tune. I love this song (and it is on the list) because it talks about the "rough" patches that relationships go through... in the end, all you can do is give the best of yourself and meet in the middle somewhere.

Cloudy--Average White Band

An amazing and truly beautiful song. It talks about feeling like you are losing someone when they are still with you. In the song, the singer asks if there is something they can do, and that that they hope that they don't "drift away." Sort of a sad song, but I think that every relationship goes through the "waxing and waning" of love.

Tell Him--Lauryn Hill

I really love this song. It says, "Tell him I need him/Tell him I love him/ And it'll be alright." and "I know I'm imperfect/and not without sin/ But now that I'm older all childish things end." Basically, Love is being humble and making compromises. Love is worth the fight.

At Last--Etta James

lol. I chose this song because, I truly feel that I have been waiting for a WHILE for the right man to come along. Of course I have no idea who he is... but I know that when it happens, that it will be EPIC. :)

Here With You--Cecilio & Kapono

I have always wanted this song for my wedding song. It seems to fit that it would be the last song that is on the playlist, because after all the drama and craziness, we would have eternity to look forward to. I know that there will still be hard times, but I would hope that we could work out whatever problems there could be. I'm not planning on ever getting divorced, so I hope that 20 years down the road that he still feels about me the way that we felt when we first got together. :)

I guess that's it. They aren't really in order... but whatever. I love these songs, and in my experience, they sort of follow the "life stages" of a relationship. IDK. I could just be super tired and delusional. lol!!!

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So, this week was pretty crazy. I watched Pirate Radio for the first time. It was pretty hilarious, I'm not going to lie. It is not for the faint of heart... there is vulgarities and awkward moments, but the plot is really good, and it was funny.

Next week is finals. I hope I can keep up with my challenge. :S

Lyrics for today are actually a music video because I couldn't find the lyrics.

Here With You--Cecilio & Kapono

Saturday, October 23, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 23

Day 23:  Something you wish you had done in your life.

Well, if you read the previous post, that is one. A big one. :)

But another thing that I wish I had done is applied myself more in high school and college. I think that my life would have turned out very differently if I had decided to focus on school instead of boys and partying. :) lol

I guess some things never change. ;)

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I'm tired. :(

Separate Ways
by: Journey

Here we stand
World's apart, hearts broken in two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
I'm reaching for you

Feelin' that it's gone
Can change your mind
If we can't go on
To survive the tide love divides

*Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched and went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched and went our separate ways

Troubled times
Caught between confusion and pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain

If you must go, I wish you love
You'll never walk alone
Take care my love
Miss you love

(*chorus*)

I still love you girl
I really love you girl
And if he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
No....no...

Friday, October 22, 2010

Susi's Birthday--a blog in picture

Hello world!!!

So, like i said yesterday, it was my friend, Susi's birthday. It was super fun and hilarious. I have a video of a fast walk competition that is AWESOME!!

We took her to Cheesecake Factory. I have to say that it was one of the awesomest visits I've ever had. The waiter was SUPER nice (and hott) ;) and the food was PHENOMENAL. We also took a side trip to Whole Foods, and I have to say that I want to make a return trip. :)

Interesting fact about Karyn #91: I love to peruse grocery stores. It is relaxing for me. I like to look at the different foods and read the labels. lol. I know. I'm crazy!!! lol.

Anywho--overall a great trip, and Susi said she had fun, and that's what matters. I took a TON of pictures and made a collage of them. Here they are:

30 Days of Truth--22

Day 22:  Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

This is sort of complicated and hard to talk about.

When I was...22-ish, I decided that I would pray and see if going on a mission was the right thing for me. I didn't really think that I would get an answer. I didn't think that that answer would be yes.

Well, I was wrong. I did, and it was. Not only was it a yes, but it was a RESOUNDING, SOUL SHAKING yes. I had never gotten an answer like that to a prayer before. Then more than anytime in my life, I KNEW God was REAL. I had never felt that way before. I knew what I had to do...and I would never feel complete until I did it. I was going on a mission.

So, I did what I had to do and got ready for it and sent in my papers.

I can't even tell you how elated I was. I knew that I was supposed to go on a mission.

Then came the day where my bishop...who at the time was my dad, got a letter about it. About me. The First Presidency had sent him a letter. I needed to be healthier. They were concerned about my weight. They were worried that I would struggle out in the field.

My dad called me in and told me. At first I laughed it off. Of course they would bring up the ONE thing that I have struggled with my entire life. The one thing that I have never been able to control. But then my dad stood up and hugged me.

You think that after having the heartbreaks I have, that I would be prepared for what happened next. I have since learned that some things can cut you deeper than small things like heartbreak.

My entire world shattered. I was sad... and then I got mad. More than mad. I was PISSED. How dare they question what I knew? How could they turn ME away.

Of course I completely overlooked the part where they asked me to lose weight as a call to action. As a test to prove that this is what I wanted.

***I feel I need to interject for a little bit here and explain something. I have always been bigger than all the girls around me. It has been something of a sensitive subject for me, and I have built my entire personality around the fact that I know people will judge me for being a large woman. So, I developed a loud, apathetic personality to compensate for the hurtful things that are said and done to me. I think that is why I reacted the way I did. Okay. On to the story.***

I saw it as an attack on ME. They didn't want me to serve. They were questioning my ability to receive revelation...it spiraled out from here to a lot of assumptions and irrational thoughts that turned me into a bitter and angry person.

It lasted for a long time. I stopped trying. I stopped caring.

Only recently have I been able to move past it and realize that what I felt was still real, and I was the one who chose to turn my back on the Lord. He never left me.

So... to answer today's question...I wish I didn't doubt the Lord when he asked me to prove my faith. I wish I had listened to my family when they offered their help, and practically begged me to soften my heart.

I wish I could go back. I wish I didn't still feel the hurt and anger from that moment. I want to forgive myself for that moment...

Maybe one day I will.

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I hate blog posts that make me cry.

Just to pay this blog post back, I will leave you with lyrics that make me happy. :)

So there blog post. There.

Green Light
by: John Legend, featuring Andre 3000

[John Legend:]
Give me the Green light
Give me just one night
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

I see you move, I'm checking your smile
Working your back like it's going out of style
Shake just a little bit faster
Shake just a little now girl
Dying to meet you, so let's mess around
I've got an obsession of us getting down
Come just a little bit closer
I just need permission so just...

Give me the green light
Give me just one night
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now
We can go all night
Give me the green light
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

I want your green green light
But if it's what it seems like
Then we can get it moving baby
Cause we know it's gonna be right

I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

[Andre 3000:]
I want your green red light
I wanna see what you dance like
But if I can be your buddy
Help you study and get your head right

[John Legend:]
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

Do I have a girlfriend... technically no.
If you'll be my girlfriend then I'll make it so
You'll be my only true lover
No competition, no others
Baby it's just the thrill of the chase
But I've got a feeling that I'm winning this race!
Baby I'm in much closer
I just need permission so...

[John Legend:]
Give me the green light...
Give me just one night.
I'm ready to go right now!
I'm ready to go right now
We can go all night
Give me the green light
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

[Andre 3000:]
I want your green green light
But if it's what it seems like
Then we can get it moving baby
Cause we know it's gonna be right

[John Legend:]
I'm ready to go right now
I'm ready to go right now

[Andre 3000:]
I want your green red light
I wanna see what you dance like
But if I can be your buddy
Help you study and get your head right

[Andre 3000:]
So I went hard like Medusa staring at me
I told her let's go, let's blow this lame nigga factory
She said, What type of girl do you think I are
The kind that you meet in a bar
You think you can get whatever you want cause you some kinda star
No I'm a comet
I just want you woman
Hey, If I were you then It would be me that I go home with
3, the one and only
One thing you ain't considered
I heard you when you told your girl "ooo he can get it"
Admit it
You did it
Let's hop a cab and split it
I'm kiddin
We both going to where you livin
HA, I got you gigglin like I'm piglet
Oh that's the ticket
I hope you are more like anita baker than robin givens
No, I don't know that lady so let me quit it
I'm just style freein, freestylin with ya'll soundin you
That's just what I'm telling you
Should be in bed with you
Like I've been in jail for two
Years and then they let me loose

[Chorus]

[Andre 3000:]
You got you one legend
Sometimes you gotta step from behind the piano
And let em know what's going on
Even Stevie Wonder got down sometimes
I'm ready to go

Thursday, October 21, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 21

Day 21:  Scenario: Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
 

You do what friends do. You forget the fight and go to help. No fight is more important than a life.

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Today is my friend Susi's birthday. We're taking her to go do something AWESOME tonight. It's a surprise... so I'll give you the details and possibly pictures tomorrow. :)

Happy Birthday Susi. :)

Today's song is dedicated to you.

Electric Boogie
by: Marcia Griffiths

It's Electric!

You can't see it
[It's electric!]
You gotta feel it
[It's electric!]
Ooh, it's shakin'
[It's electric!]
[Jiggle-a-mesa-cara
She's a pumpin' like a matic
She's a movin' like electric
She sure got the boogie]

You gotta know it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie!]
Now you can't hold it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie!]
But you know it there,
Yeah here there everywhere

I've got to move,
I'm going on a party ride
I've got to groove, groove, groove,
And from this music
I just can't hide.

Are you comin' with me?
Come let me take you on a party ride
And I'll teach you, teach you, teach you
I'll teach you the electric slide

Some say it's mystic
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
You can't resist it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
You can'y do without it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
Jiggle-a-mesa-cara she's a pumpin' like a matic
She's movin' like electric
She sure got the boogie

Don't wanna lose it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
But you can't choose it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
But you know it's there,
Yeah here there everywhere

Horn Instrumental

I've got to move,
Come let me take you on a party ride
And I'll teach you, teach you, teach you
I'll teach you the electric slide

Horn Instrumental

Some say it's mystic
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
You can't resist it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
You can'y do without it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
Jiggle-a-mesa-cara she's a pumpin' like a matic
She's movin' like electric
She sure got the boogie

Don't wanna lose it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
But you can't choose it
[It's electric
Boogie woogie, woogie]
But you know it's there,
Yeah here there everywhere

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 20

Day 20:  Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Hmm. Well, My views on drugs are that unless they help you medically, they are wrong.

Alcohol... I wish that I didn't have first-hand knowledge of that bad things that can happen when you drink alcohol. It is a "substance" and therefore can affect you adversely.
I believe that consuming alcohol is wrong.

I do believe that abusing either one of these substances is wrong...and extremely bad for you.

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Today was a CRAZY day. We had a candidate forum (aka a debate) at work. People + Political Passion + Debate = Riotous action/Religious revival.

It was awesome.

Now, lyrics. I could apply it to how I felt about the last 3 elections... lol.

Holding Out For A Hero
by: Bonnie Tyler

Where have all the good men gone
and where are all the gods?
Where's the streetwise Hercules
to fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight
upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss
and I turn
and I dream of what I need.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the end of the night.
He's gotta be strong
and he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the morning light.
He's gotta be sure
and it's gotta be soon

And he's gotta be larger than life!
larger than life.

Somewhere after midnight
in my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
there's someone reaching back for me.
Racing on the thunder
and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman
to sweep me off my feet.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the end of the night.
He's gotta be strong
and he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the morning light.
He's gotta be sure
and it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the end of the night.

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I could swear there is someone
somewhere
watching me.

Through the wind
and the chill
and the rain
And the storm
and the flood

I can feel his approach
like a fire in my blood.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the end of the night.
He's gotta be strong
and he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight.

I need a hero.
I'm holding out for a hero
'til the morning light.
He's gotta be sure
and it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 19

Day 19:  What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Many of you know that I am LDS (aka Mormon). AND since I pretty much covered everything I have to say on politics in this post, I'll talk about religion.

I know that a lot of people don't believe in God or Jesus. I know that a lot of people think religion is a croc...a way for humanity to feel better about their lives. I can't change what people think, but I know what I know.

I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the truest form of the Lords church on earth. I know that we are created in God's image. I know that Jesus is the Savior of the world. I know that he died for me. I know that a teenage boy named Joseph Smith restored Jesus Christ's church on earth. I know that same man translated the Book of Mormon and that that book is another testament of Jesus Christ, and the truest book on earth. I know that if I live my life the best I can and do the things that are asked of me, that I can be with my family forever...that death can't break us apart. I know that Thomas Monson is the Lord's prophet on the earth today and that he leads us in the paths of righteousness.



I know that God lives.



I know that He loves me unconditionally.


What do I think about religion??? 
 

Life without religion is like a world without sunlight. :)


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Today has been pretty awesome. :) I've been having a pretty good day overall. There have been...obstacles today. However, I have decided that if I care about them too much, they'll overcome me, so I'm setting them aside.

Last night was another great night of volleyball. I think that I'm cursed though. I hurt my thumb trying to hit a ball. Some people say that I am too violent when I play volleyball. I'm not violent. I'm loud and I like to hit the ball hard, but that is NOT violent. ;) All my team members know that if I play on their team, I will be yelling at them to hit the ball. lol. Of course it's all in good fun, and no one takes me too seriously.

Today's song was in my head this morning and has stayed with me all day. I think that it was meant to be posted today. :)

Defying Gravity
from the musical Wicked--as performed in the TV series, Glee

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And never bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

Monday, October 18, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 18

Day 18:  Your views on gay marriage.

Wow. This has potential to be a post that loses readers for me. However, I can't LIE in my own Truth Challenge, so here it goes.

I am split on the topic of gay marriage. On one side, I think--why not??? It's not that big of a deal. If people want a piece of paper that says they're married... whatever.

BUT on the other side of things--I think that homosexuality is wrong. I don't really understand "same-sex" attraction. Personally, I think it's gross. So, that side of me says--no freaking way. That is disgusting...

However, I am too tolerant to take it further than that thought. I am a big believer in the fact that people will pay the consequences of their actions--positive or negative. I am not responsible for other people's decisions, and I won't ever force someone to believe what I believe.

Yes. I believe that homosexuality is WRONG. However, persecution is also wrong. We are all in this together, but I don't want other people to judge me for my beliefs. What right do I have to judge others? Christ said, "Love one another as I have loved you." I love people as a whole, and I try not to judge them.

My hope is that people won't judge me and that they will allow me to believe in what I see as truth. I don't support gay marriage. I do support tolerance and love.

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Today is going alright. I'm tired, I have a headache, and I'm cold. However, I get to work today, and that is always a good thing. I like to be busy. It helps to relax me. lol. I know that sounds funny, but it really does. I like to have something to do. :)

The song for today is a GREAT one. I hope you like it!!!

 I listen to it when I need a perk for my day! :)

Just Like Heaven
by: The Cure

"Show me, show me, show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face I kissed her neck
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Oh, won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

Sunday, October 17, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 17

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Hmm. This is an extremely hard question. I love reading. A lot. I can't tell you how many books I've read, because honestly I don't really know. I would say well into the thousands, but I couldn't be sure. Of course, aside from religious books, there are many that I would say changed my views on things. The most recent would be The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.

This book is...for lack of a better word--AMAZING! It talks about fulfilling your dreams and going to your limits to find out who you are. One of my favorite quotes from it is: "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

Truly awesome. Go read it...NOW! ;)

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Today was church. It was so freaking awesome! My day started out badly, but it ended up AMAZING!!! I love to go to church. My favorite part is singing. I love to sing in church. It makes me feel like I am speaking directly to the heavens. :)

Also today, got to talk to my roomie for a while AND I went to my friend, Cherie's place and hung out. :)

The lyrics for today are inspired by a conversation I had today with a friend. Have a great Sunday!!!

Hair
from the musical Hair

She asks me why
I'm just a hairy guy
I'm hairy noon and night
Hair that's a fright
I'm hairy high and low
Don't ask me why
Don't know
It's not for lack of break
Like the Grateful Dead
Darling

Gimme head with hair
Long beautiful hair
Shining, gleaming,
Streaming, flaxen, waxen

Give me down to there hair
Shoulder length or longer
Here baby, there mama
Everywhere daddy daddy

Hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair
Flow it, show it
Long as God can grow it
My hair

Let it fly in the breeze
And get caught in the trees
Give a home to the fleas in my hair
A home for fleas
A hive for bees
A nest for birds
There ain't no words
For the beauty, the splendor, the wonder
Of my...

Hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair
Flow it, show it
Long as God can grow it
My hair

I want it long, straight, curly, fuzzy
Snaggy, shaggy, ratty, matty
Oily, greasy, fleecy
Shining, gleaming, streaming
Flaxen, waxen
Knotted, polka-dotted
Twisted, beaded, braided
Powdered, flowered, and confettied
Bangled, tangled, spangled, and spaghettied!

Oh say can you see
My eyes if you can
Then my hair's too short

Down to here
Down to there
Down to where
It stops by itself

They'll be ga ga at the go go
When they see me in my toga
My toga made of blond
Brilliantined
Biblical hair

My hair like Jesus wore it
Hallelujah I adore it
Hallelujah Mary loved her son
Why don't my mother love me?

Hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair
Flow it, show it
Long as God can grow it
My hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair, hair
Flow it, show it
Long as God can grow it
My hair

Saturday, October 16, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 16

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance. :)

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

I could live without stupid drivers. Why can't people just drive like NORMAL??? Especially in Utah. It feels almost like I'm following people and they haven't decided what they want to do with their lives... "To work or not to work??? Maybe if I drive 15 miles under the speed limit, everyone will love me for stalling the inevitable work week... Maybe if I slam on my breaks for no apparent reason, the people behind me will thank me endlessly, because I brake for text messages."

I HATE STUPID DRIVERS. :[

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So today was pretty cool. I went to Vegas last night with Susi and we worked at an event for her business, yellowpix.com. They are a super cool event photography company that specializes in green-screen technology like this:

This is my Herbalife fan club. :) lol. Actually they are my coach, his coach, and the most inspirational guy I know! :)


It was cool. My knee was bothering me, but overall, there were a lot of awesome people there that were walking or running for cancer. :)

Lyrics for today are an amazing song that has made my life happier while driving. :) Enjoy it and I'll see you on the flip side!!!

Get Over It
by: The Eagles

I turn on the tube and what do I see
A whole lotta people cryin' "Don't blame me"
They point their crooked little fingers ar everybody else
Spend all their time feelin' sorry for themselves
Victim of this, victim of that
Your momma's too thin; your daddy's too fat

Get over it
Get over it
All this whinin' and cryin' and pitchin' a fit
Get over it, get over it

You say you haven't been the same since you had your little crash
But you might feel better if I gave you some cash
The more I think about it, Old Billy was right
Let's kill all the lawyers, kill 'em tonight
You don't want to work, you want to live like a king
But the big, bad world doesn't owe you a thing

Get over it
Get over it
If you don't want to play, then you might as well split
Get over it, Get over it

It's like going to confession every time I hear you speak
You're makin' the most of your losin' streak
Some call it sick, but I call it weak

You drag it around like a ball and chain
You wallow in the guilt; you wallow in the pain
You wave it like a flag, you wear it like a crown
Got your mind in the gutter, bringin' everybody down
Complain about the present and blame it on the past
I'd like to find your inner child and kick its little a--

Get over it
Get over it
All this b-tchin' and moanin' and pitchin' a fit
Get over it, get over it

Get over it
Get over it
It's gotta stop sometime, so why don't you quit
Get over it, get over it

Friday, October 15, 2010

30 Days of Truth--Day 15

Day 15:  Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

I cannot live without friends and family. Literally. I slowly die each day without them. Especially when I am struggling with life... which is like every day.

I LOVE MY FREAKING FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!!

Seriously. They are so amazingly awesome.

Of course if you read my blog about how much I love my family, the first part comes as no surprise to you.

However, I don't know if I have talked to you about my friends. Everywhere I live, I try to make a group of friends that is SO EPIC--that we will literally tip the earth off it's axis because of the magnitude of our awesomeness. I have to say that I have come pretty close to that here in St. George. Seriously. Everyone I hang out with is STELLAR! I don't even know how to start saying how cool and neat and marvelous and happy-making and wonderful and crazy and cool and awesome they are. But they are. You will just have t trust that I have the most amazing friends in the universe and that we have momentous good times when we get together. :)

oh, and I can't live without fruit. I love fruit. It is delicious. Except for grapefruit... which is disgusting.



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Today I am also going to Vegas with my bff Sus. lol. (did you get my bff Rose reference??) lol.

Anyway, we're going to work, but it will be fun still. :) That is all I have to say. Have a great evening, and I'll see ya on the flip side!!!

Night by Night
by: Chromeo

I know inside of me sooner or later we gon' be free
C'mon girl, don't make a fuss
Let's have a conversation that's not just about us

When we don't know which way to go
... and it doesn't really matter what we do
there's gotta be one good way to know
If all this is worth it we can work it night by night.

She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night
She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night
Night by Night
Night by Night
Night by Night
Night by Night


I know inside of me if we wait a bit longer we'll see what's meant to be
C'mon girl, we can't be apart
A special kind of lovin reaches right through my heart

When we don't know which way to go
... and it doesn't really matter what we do
there's gotta be one good way to know
If all this is worth it we can work it night by night.

She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night
She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night
Night by Night
Night by Night
Night by Night
Night by Night

[Instrumental Solo]

... Not Romantic
... Too Dramatic
We can work it night by night
... Not Romantic
... Too Dramatic
We can work it night by night
... Not Romantic
... Too Dramatic
We can work it night by night
... Not Romantic
... Too Dramatic
We can work it night by night

She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night
She says I'm not romantic
I say she's too dramatic
I tell her while we're at it we can work it night by night

(belated) 30 Days of Truth Challenge--Day 14

Day 14:  A hero that has let you down.

I don't have a lot of heroes. Here is the short list:
    • My parents
    • My grandparents
    • My brothers
It's hard to write about heroes because how can your family let you down??? BUT, there was a point in my life where i felt like one of my heroes let me down. I was angry and hurt for a good 3-4 months, until I learned the real story. I am still a little disappointed, but I realize that it is for the greater good. I am talking about when my oldest brother left his wife and kids.

I haven't really talked about how I REALLY felt when he left...mostly because I felt selfish. I have since changed my perspective on this, but when he left, I felt like he betrayed me. I felt like the brother that raised me and taught me to be better, had lost his DAMN MIND. How dare he break this family? How dare he leave ME?! I was so...soo...IDK.

Weird. I can't even properly convey the emotions that I was feeling.

How do I show you in type how much that hurt me? How angry I was??? I literally don't have words for that kind of hurt.

However, after actually talking to him and attempting to talk to his wife, I realize that he really didn't let me down. He tried to make it work for 6 years. SIX YEARS!!! That is a long time to try to fix something.

Sometimes we judge others where we should love, and sometimes we love where we should leave. I don't know a lot about love. I've only loved three men in my life other than my family. However, I do know that love should make everything around you better. There is no love left in that marriage. It's a sad but true fact. I wish my brother luck. I really do. He has a lot to sort out, and I hope that he makes smart and compassionate choices.

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My roomie, Ames, is FINALLY moving in!!! I'm super happy and excited about it. Our place is SUPER AWESOME! :) I'm so stoked!!!

Today we (aka my band--the Waimea Trucking Company) have a gig. It's going to be awesome!

Lyrics for today... a great song. Truly a classic. I LOVE it!!!


Fire and Rain
by: James Taylor

Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Suzanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to

I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Won't you look down on me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

I’ve been walking my mind to an easy time
My back turned towards the sun
Lord knows the cold wind blows it’ll turn your head around
Well, there’s hours of time on the telephone line
To talk about things to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground.

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now

Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things coming my way this time around,
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now
Thought I'd see you just one more time again.