Friday, April 24, 2009

Toradora! and rethinking things...

So, some of you may not know this about me, but I LOVE watching Japanese Anime. :)

My favorite of all time is Naruto, but lately I've been watching an anime called Toradora!. It's about a group of High School kids, and what happens to them as they go through their last year of school together. If you're interested in watching, Click Here. Such a great show.

I guess what is really bringing on this blog is something with the storyline of Toradora! that relates to my life. I want to publicly apologize to Jim. I've mentioned him a couple of times, but I want to set the record straight. I've made him out to be a really jerky guy... but in actuality, I should be grateful to him. He was a great friend to me, and now that I look back, he really did try to spare my feelings. I know that I was just too pig headed and stubborn to really understand. I'm grateful for the experiences that we had, and I'm finally learning to grow from them. I just wish that I could talk to him about it. Unfortunately I can't... but if you happen to come across this, I'm sorry. I want nothing but happiness for you and your wife (and in the future, kids! ;) ) You never deserved any of my bitterness. I know you were trying to be a good friend to me, and I ruined it for the both of us. You will never have to worry about me again, because I FINALLY understand what those years were about. I hope in the future that we can rebuild what we had... a really good friendship. Thank you for being there for me when no one else was. You will never know how much you saved me from, and how you changed my perspective on things. Good luck in the future, and be good to your wife.

I hope one day he can forgive me.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Great Day...

So, other than the fact that tomorrow will be horrendous, today is pretty awesome thus far. I'm in a way good mood, and I have no real reason other than good music, and the feeling of accomplishment I always get when I finish the newsletter I make for work weekly. :)

I guess I should tell you WHY tomorrow will be bad. I have to put TINY stickers on both sides of a program I made because I didn't get it proofed like I should have. The programs are for an event the Chamber is doing... so, I'll have approx. 3 hours to apply 500+ minuscule stickers. I guess I don't have to do it, but I'll try. :)

Hmm... other than that, my roommate is doing really well. I think she over exerted herself today, but overall her recovery is going great.

If you ever come to visit me at work, you'll notice that I have a TON of plants in my office. :) I was sort of day dreaming earlier... imagining what they would say to each other as the day progresses... here's what I came up with:

Mini Bonsai: Gosh, today is super nice. Hey, Karyn got a new haircut!

Fern: Hmm... It looks a little 'blocky' for my tastes.

Sweet Plant in the Corner: Oh, come on Fern. Not everyone can look 'perfectly quaffed' like Zac Efron. I like her hair cut!

Fern: Yeah, whatever. A blocky haircut won't get her a boyfriend.

Mini Bonsai: Gosh, you two are like a couple of old ladies. Can't we talk about something that matters??? LIKE: that house plant that was on Oprah the other night with Ashton Kutcher. What was with that whole leaning thing it had going on???

Sweet Plant in the Corner: I have no idea. Maybe it's a Hollywood thing. I wonder if I can get that plant's number... the stories it could tell...

Fern: Are you serious??? Are we really talking about this right now???

Lol. ;) Good times! Wouldn't it be super cool to know what plants said, or if walls really COULD talk??? That would be SWEET!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Overcoming

Hello All!!!

So, This week has been a week for overcoming things.

LIKE:

I am in a weight challenge, and have experienced a significant amount of weight loss. The 'overcoming' in this situation is me overcoming not only my addiction to food, but overcoming my rebellious feelings towards authority figures, and listening to my weight loss coach. I haven't reached my goals yet, or completely overcome my addiction to food, but I DO believe I'm on my way! :)

Another thing I've been trying to overcome, is my fear of reading the Book of Mormon. I know it's ridiculous to say that I'm afraid of reading the Book of Mormon. I already have a testimony... so it's not like I'm not converted... or am I??? I've been feeling like I've been in a spiritual slump lately, and I credit it to a couple of things. Laziness and Fear being at the top of the list. If I am truthful to myself (and to you) I can honestly say that the reason I feel afraid or felt afraid to read the B.O.M. is because I felt if I read it, I could no longer be myself. My 'overcoming' in this situation is realizing that I can be MYSELF and a member of the LDS Church at the same time. :) Again... not completely 'over it,' but I've dedicated myself to reading a chapter a night, and I've been doing really well!!!

I don't know if any of you have figured out that I have a phobia of commitment. Probably at the root of all of my problems, but that isn't what this is about. looking back, I've had a lot of relationship issues. I can never seem to find anyone that either I want to stay with or someone who wants to stay with me. Guys are somewhat of a conundrum to me and I can't piece it out. However, when I was talking to my mom, she suggested that I use this therapeutic technique called 'journaling.' SOOOO, the 'overcoming' in this situation is me, writing letters to my future husband (whoever he is) in an effort to committ myself not only to him, but all my future relationships. Not sure how effective it will be, but hey... no harm, no foul. :)

SO... A fantastic week thus far. I'm taking care of my roommate. She just had major surgery, so I'm helping take care of her. She's such a great person. It's sad to see her so weak. :( BUT, she's doing really well, and getting better all the time. :) I'm in a FANTASTIC mood right now. Good Times!!!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Equip Yourselves!

Hello All!!!

So, I've noticed that a lot of my blogs are sort of "Gloom & Doom" types. Sort of weird because I perceive myself as a positive and optimistic person... Hmm... Sorry about that. I'll continue to try to be funny and witty in my future blogging. :)

This weekend I took a concealed weapons class. I have been thinking a lot about purchasing a firearm for my personal protection and well being, so when my Uncle told me he was teaching a class this weekend, I took him up on the offer. :) It was a pretty cool class. I like my Uncle a lot, and we get along pretty well, so it was cool to chill with him in his element.

I'm still not sure about the whole "I am willing to take another person's life" aspect of guns, but taking the class REALLY taught me a lot about perceptions of weapons AND why it is important to have the ability to not only to purchase a firearm, but to have the RIGHT to bear arms.

Our constitution CLEARLY states that we have the right to bear arms. This means (for all those who are a little slow on the uptake) that we, as American Citizens, have the right to own a gun for personal and familial protection. I am SO happy I live in the United States of America. This really is a great country. It's sad to see corruption and idiocy... BUT Susi eased my mind somewhat when she reminded me that the Priesthood will save the country. I truly believe that.

Anyways, Overall a good weekend. It was EASTER... which I don't really ever celebrate, but it was fun anyway. I went to the Lafaele's and had pork and chicken and slept on their back porch. It was way fun. :)

Also watched Slumdog Millionaire this weekend. It was a pretty good movie. A little disturbing at some parts, but overall well done. I think it's earned it's rating of 'R' but, it's mostly because of the 'theme.' It's set in the slums of India, so you can use your imagination.

Something I stumbled over this morning... for all you peeps who do not know what this is a cartoon of, Google burqua, and you can educate yourself. :) I hope you ENJOY! :)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Arizona

For my birthday, I was lucky enough to be able to go to Arizona twice. :) The first time was to Page, to spend time with my grandma and Uncle Kelly, who's birthday is the day before mine. It was good times! AND I got to have a steak. :)

The second time was a road trip to Phoenix, planned and executed by my friend Susi. I have to admit, that starting out, I was more than a little anxious about the whole thing.

If you haven't noticed, I'm somewhat obsessive compulsive.

Unfortunately, Susi is not, and she tends to like to 'leave me in the dark' on purpose to 'break' me of my OCD-ness. Good luck with that. ;)

SO, I'm sitting at home, worrying about not having enough stuff with me. Do I need a swim suit? Do I need some major allergy medicine? Do they have wi-fi there? You know, the norm. And the anxiety grows and grows all night. Thursday, (the day we left) I ask Susi stupid questions like: Are we hiking? (lol... not likely) Do I need a pillow? Is my bag too big? etc. I'm actually surprised that she was so patient with me. Maybe she took pity on me. :)

We left Thursday night, and took a 6 hour drive to Phoenix... wait. 7. It was a nice drive. I wish it was light... I like long drives where I can admire the scenery. Highlight of the drive down was DEFINITELY the Hoover Dam Suspension Bridge. Amazing piece of architecture. :) Also a highlight-- I got some cool glasses that I've dubbed 'Dorothy Glasses' because they remind me of the glasses that one of our volunteers, Dorothy, wears. :)

Some may ask, why did you take a road trip??? Well, the simple answer is... because we could. Also, it was supposed to be a combined birthday trip. We originally wanted to take our friend Lani with us, because her birthday is in April, BUT unfortunately she couldn't come. :( Any who... back to the story...

Phoenix is home to one of my favorite places to eat... The George and Dragon Pub. :) A pub with British food. Not really anything to blink at, but the food is exceptional, if not VERY good. (even though the service was atrocious. I think the waitress was wanting to serve the drunkards instead of us 'eating folk'...) While in Phoenix, we went to the Mesa Chamber of Commerce, the temple, and the Biltmore Shopping Center.

Saturday morning, we headed to Tuba City and Cameron. It was a really nice drive. On the way to Flagstaff, there were a lot of places that looked like Kona. It really made me homesick. :S Any ways...

So, we get to Tuba, and visit the Justice family. Super nice family. We actually met up with two of the older Justice kids in Phoenix. Their family is so nice!!! :) They also own all the "Pizza Edge" restaurants in the Tuba area. They totally hooked us up. It was AWESOME!!!

We stayed at the Cameron Trading Post. Really nice rooms and WAY good Navajo Tacos. :) Went to the Grand Canyon as well. SOOO beautiful! I really liked it a lot. We stopped at a gulch on the way back, and it was really cool. There were some really awesome signs along the way that explained flora and fauna. It was SUPER cool.

After the gulch, we stopped on the side of the road and Susi had some mutton and hominy stew. We also got some of the best fry-bread I've ever had.

On the way home, we saw the Vermilion Cliffs. I just really like that word. VERMILION... :)

All in all a great trip. I think on my next road trip, I'll have better musical selections. Also, probably will save up some more money, and look for antique shops. :)