Thursday, September 17, 2009

I'm watching!

Hello all!!!

I just wanted to say that I LOVE watching movies. :) I don't know what it is, but after I watch a good movie I am automatically in a good mood. :)

Movies I want to see in the future:

-Ponyo
-All About Steve
-9
-Up (i know... haven't seen it yet)
-Paper Heart
-Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
-Invention of Lying
-Surrogates
-The Informant
-Amelia
-Astro Boy
-Youth in Revolt
-New Moon
-2012
-Fantastic Mr. Fox
-Planet 51
-Ninja Assassin
-The Lovely Bones
-The Princess and the Frog
-Avatar
-Hachiko: A Dog’s Tale
-The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus
-It’s Complicated
-Sherlock Holmes
-Mr. Nobody
-The Secret of Moonacre
-Up in the Air

:)

I really do love movies... and these are just the "mainstream" ones. I have a whole other list for the indie films I want to see. Which brings me to the point of my post.

I am finally able to go to a movie alone and enjoy myself.

I have a friend that ALWAYS watched movies alone. (I'm assuming since he is now married he has a movie pal. ;) ) I always thought he was strange, but now I see that it wasn't strangeness. It's good to feel comfortable in your own skin. To not care what the outside world thinks of you. I think as a society, we put too high a price on what others think.

What do you think?

Because, truly, that is what matters. No one else can live your life for you. If you want to go somewhere or do something, what are you waiting for? Get out there and do it. If you wait for other people to jump on the band wagon, you'll be waiting all your life. Here is another Dr. Seuss quote:

"Today you are you,
that is truer than true.
There is no one alive
who is youer than you."

Be who you are, and do it on purpose. Don't let others dictate who you are.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Tired. Sorry if this doesn't make sense.

I find myself at a crossroads of sorts. I feel like I am presented with two options, and I don't know which to choose.

One path leads to possible happiness and less drama. One of my resolutions this year has been to avoid drama, and while I have tried to, I find it tends to follow me. The first path has been there for a long time, but I've eluded the choice by pretending it wasn't there. Now, I am forced to recognize it is there and make a choice. Which explains the post... even if no one reads it. ;)

The second path is full of drama and possible happiness. (you notice the "possible"... that because happiness is uncertain) There are also other things on the second path that can be either positive or negative depending on how they occur. I can see further down this path, but I'm unsure if I want to deal with the ramifications and hardships down this path.

I am extremely tempted to take the first path, but then I wonder, "What if the second path (while harder and more 'rocky') is the right path to take?" How do I instinctively know that the second path will be harder? Why do I think that the harder the journey the bigger reward? What if the easier path is just that? Easier? What if the rewards are the same, but I'm just torturing myself because I'm deluded? All these questions and no answers.

huh... moving on.

I was reading my friend's blog, and I have to say that I feel a lot like she has recently: depressed and confused. I feel like everything I try to say or do blows up in my face. I am a blunt and at times apathetic person. I care a lot about my family and friends, but sometimes it's just too much to have to worry about EVERYONE all the time. I know that I offend a lot of people, but I really can't be bothered about it. Mostly because I can't control how people interpret what I say and what I do. However, it also has a lot to do with my friend Carol's favorite quote by Dr. Seuss:

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

So will the people that 'matter' care that I am thoughtless and blunt? Obviously my family and friends (for the most part) don't because they are still around.

But...

I still get that nagging sensation that I need to make some adjustments. But why? This is just like weight loss to me. I know I need to lose weight. It's my body, and I need to take better care of it, but I get irritated when people tell me that I need to lose weight to get a boyfriend. My view is: If he doesn't love me while I'm fat, how do I know that he'll love me if I'm thin? See the parallelism? If not, too bad. I'm too tired to explain right now.

Life is so unexpected some times.