North Shore

I just watched the movie North Shore. Not society's best piece of film, but surprisingly accurate in social interaction between 'haole's' or white folk and locals. Also really good example that ignorance is the thing that locals 'hold against' the visitors that go to Hawaii. My personal opinion is that you should either have someone to escort you around, or pay attention. You can really get hurt if you live in ignorance your whole life. Learn to respect others and their culture, and you'll be able to gain acceptance in that type of situation.

Watching this movie, and reading my friend Latu's blog really set me off to write this blog. Even though I talk about stupid haole's or whatever... Most of my irritation comes from the fact that people now days don't respect each other. They don't want to respect each other either. It's really sad to witness crimes of hate and just plain old ignorance. I'm a firm believer in RESPECT. If you don't have respect, you don't have anything.

Wow

So, the Christmas Season is in full swing, and I'm singing along with every Christmas song I hear.


Luckily I like Christmas. Otherwise I may be annoyed with the perpetual cheeriness and goodwill that people develop and lose within the 5 week period known to most as the 'Holiday Season.' I stumbled upon this video. Check it out. I feel this way sometimes... but only when forced to join the throngs of panicked shoppers, fighting over tickle me elmo and fairy princess barbie.


I've been really sick for the past week. And, I've decided that I hate being sick more than I hate stupid drivers. Sure, you get days off of work and you get to eat soup and toast whenever you want to, but is it really worth the sniffling, sneezing, coughing, aching, stuffy-head, and fever? I say no to this. NO! lol... sorry. I really am tired of being sick. I get sick only once or twice a year, though, so I should be grateful. I'll just will myself to get better.




I'm pretty excited for next. week. At work we do a Wassail day. Where we invite our members to come and drink wassail and eat gingerbread cookies. :) I'm super excited because gingerbread cookies are ny number 4 favorite cookie... Esp if they are soft and DELICIOUS! Oh, My number 1-3 cookies are: #1. Karyn's Amazing Chocolate Chip Peanut Butter Chip Peanut Butter Cookies, #2. My mom's coconut oatmeal rasin cookies, and #3. Aunty Sandy's molasses cookies. Good times. :)

This holiday season is looking like it will be a lot of driving and a lot of money. :S Oh well. Sometimes you have to make sacrifices for your family. :) lol. Even if it is a $25 tank of gas and a couple of presents. ;) Happy Holidays!

Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Wow. I find myself today in especially good spirits. :) So, Merry Christmas!!! :D

I have good news and bad news. Let's start with the bad news. I got home from Hawai'i AAAANNNNNDDD... my cell phone broke. :( I was like... what the CRAP?! I was worried that I would have to pay for whatever repairs that had to be done. I would usually NOT worry about that, but I just got back from vacation, and well... you know how that goes. lol... anyways, so I FINALLY went to the cell phone store, and it was diagnosed... intermittent charge deficiency which is caused by a faulty charging port. It would have been alright, but they don't sell mymodel of phone at the Verizon store here in St. George... SOOOO, they couldn't save any of my information or videos or pictures, etc. This is particularly sad for me because I just got back from Hawaii, where my family is. I took a lot of pictures, videos, etc. ANYWAYS... this brings us to the good news:

I got a new phone!!! Hazahhh!

I need to get numbers for everyone... so If you want to email it to me, go for it! :)

This is the season... beloved of the year. Sing a rhyme, Christmas time soon will be here! lol. I really like Christmas a lot. Not as much as Thanksgiving, but it's only by a fraction. Christmas is the time that I get to show people that I was not only paying attention to them, BUT that I care enough to get them something. WHICH is why I hardly ever get people things or send them stuff if I'm not in close proximity. It's not that I don't love the people far away from me emotionally or physically, it's just that I can't think of what I could send you that would make sense without going back to times that aren't relevant for your life today. lol. is that enough of a 'cop out' or what? lol

anyways, i'm excited for christmas. its always a good time to be around family and friends.

Utah

So, I've decided that Utah isn't too bad. I actually like cold weather a lot, so it works out. :) The thing I DON'T like is the 100+ degree weather during the summer.

I've been trying to decide on what I want to give people for Christmas. I usually like to do little sentimentally funny things that people can look at and smile about. However, this year my SUPER AWESOME friend Susi is giving me an awesome gift that I'll be able to share with everyone. So looks like it'll be that... well, at least for family and a select few friends. Everyone else will have to be content with the AMAZING Christmas cards I got in Hawaii. :)

Overall, I feel like it's still too early for Christmas. This year has gone by so quickly. It seems like summer was just yesterday! :S Where has all the time gone? Did you know next year I'll be 25?! That's a quarter of a century people! Isn't that weird to think about? I don't feel like I'm almost 25... I sort of feel like I'm 20-ish.

So, for Christmas this year I want to just chill out and relax. Even though this year has gone by SUPER fast, it was really busy. I'm glad it's coming to an end. I feel bad for Susi because she'll be working through the break. That's what you get for being an over achiever (that's right Sus! I said it!) lol... oh... just fyi, I am NOT getting married, but I found the most AMAZING wedding dress. I totally LOVE the style...

I also found this dress... doesn't the model look like Tia or Tamera Mowry?



Lol... anyways, hope all is well with all of you!

Post Hawaii aka Hawaii pt. 3 (Twilight, Quantum of Solace, and Puka Dogs?)

HELLO FROM UTAH!!!

It's horrendously cold, but I'll survive. It's right back into the groove as well... You know what they say, there's no rest for the wicked...

However, I didn't get a chance to blog about the other adventures I got to experience in Hawaii, so this is like the post Hawaii wrap up.

First of all, I have a new nephew!!! He's so cute! Born on Thankgiving day... he was 9 lbs. 2.3 oz. and 21 1/4" long! His name is Peter Ioane (ee-oh-ah-nay) Keanaaina. Ioane means John, which is my paternal grandfathers name, and Ioane is my brother's (his father) middle name. Here's a pic of him and his parents... he's only an hour or so old in this pic:


So, My brother Adam and his family came over from Big Island for Thanksgiving. I was glad that they did. I haven't seen my nephews in a year, and so It was nice to see them. :) Here's a picture of them.


Something completely awesome... They wanted to show me their 'ninja moves'... so I took a video of them. I would post it, but I don't want to get booked for child abuse like this guy. I didn't egg them on, and if I do allow you to watch the video, you can see that they are laughing the whole time. :)

Anyways, so I went to a heavenly place while in Hawaii called PUKA DOG. :) Seriously the most amazing hot dog I've EVER had. They start out with the bun. It's open on one side and closed on the other, making the 'puka' or hole for the puka dog. They give you a choice of what you want on it (and trust me, it looks weird, and gross, but it is SO delicious!) Then from there, you insert your choice of veggie of polish dog and EAT! Seriously so good... I'm hungry just thinking about it!!!


Then we went to Twilight. I have to say that I was pleasantly surprised. They did an ok job. I wasn't super impressed with certain character castings... Esme, Carlisle, and Jasper... but overall, it was alright. The make-up was sort of lame... the cinematography was AMAZING! I guess I would recommend it to someone that hasn't read the books, or doesn't have any expectations for the movie at all... but it was pretty good.

Twilight was nothing compared to Quantum of Solace!!! Holy cow... Such a great movie. Action, action, action... The storyline was a little weak, but it was super good regardless. GO WATCH IT!!!

Overall, Hawaii was a great trip. I'm sad that I had to leave, but I'm glad to be back. I got a lot of cool stuff, and I have a lot of good memories. It's cold like a monkey over here, but what else can you expect of Utah in the winter? lol! Anyways, have a good one! Alohas!

Hawaii pt. 2

okay. So i'm in hawaii... as most of you know already.

Two things... well, two for now that will most likely morph into much more.

#1. I LOVE MY FAMILY!!! Particularly my niece. she is so sassy and cute. I took these pictures of her today. the first one is her being 'angry' and the second is her impression of falling asleep at the wheel. No worries, as a responsible aunty, i told her not to do it in real life. :) 

#2. I've been sleeping on a futon, and needless to say, I am SO grateful for my bed!!! I've been in back ache city for the past week. I love being here, but my back hurts like a monkey.

overall, i'm  really happy to be here, but rest assured, I'll be glad to go back to utah (i know, right? I even surprised myself!) 

In Hawaii

So, I am currently in Hawai'i Nei... It is SUPER nice to be able to be near family... and to see my brothers and parents again. :) I guess you don't really know how much you miss home until you've been away, and get to see it again! :)

Even though my whole family is now majorly located on O'ahu... (I am originally from Big Island) I think it's mostly just the general 'feel' of the Islands that makes me feel at home. If I went back to Big Island, I think it would have been a more emotional homecoming for me, but being here is surreal. I never feel fully 'in reality' when I'm on any of the other islands. Is that weird?

So, my friend Susi FINALLY has begun a blog. She really is a great writer, so go read it! :) (susibell.blogspot.com) 

Tonight we're going to Twilight. I hope it's good. I REALLY disliked the 4th book. Which made me never want to read them again. SOOOO, we'll see how I like it. I have no preconcieved notions, so it won't be a disappointment like Eragon. Seriously, Chris... you should have been more aware of the movie and it's progression. :S

Okay, I have to go make dinner... I'll blog more later! ALOHAS!

8 and Great

Okay, I know its another Tag, but I really liked this one... And, I think you can leanr a lot from people from reading this kind of stuff.

8 TV shows I love to watch:
1. Bones
2. Pushing Dasies
3. House
4. How I Met Your Mother
5. Project Runway
6. That 70's Show
7. Arrested Development
8. Jon & Kate Plus 8

8 favorite restaurants:
1. Hayashi's "You Make the Roll"
2. Hawaiian Style Cafe
3. Don's Kitchen
4. Mitsuba's/Mitsu Ken's
5. Player's Sports Grill
6. Makino Chaya
7. Benja Thai & Sushi
8. Gun Barrel (Velvet Elk...)

8 things that happened yesterday:
1. Church
2. Tithing Settlement
3. Cleaned most of my bathroom
4. Finished 2 books
5. Ate dinner with my uncle, aunty, and (best) friend Susi!
6. Watched the Blue Collar Comedy Group for the first time
7. Got complimented by 3 people
8. I woke up late

8 things I'm looking forward to:
1. Going to Hawaii
2. Getting old. Like 80 and still kickin type of old
3. Getting married. I decided that while I'm not really ready for it now, that It will be totally rad.
4. Buying another vehicle. It's in the cards...
5. Sleeping... I am SUPER tired right now
6. Watching Twilight (I know, I know... but it looks really interesting. I hated how the books ended, but I think I'll like the movie. Weird, huh?)
7. Thanksgiving! It's only the best holiday ever
8. Visiting my grandma when I get back from Hawaii

8 things on my wish list:
1. To be debt free
2. To have a new(er) truck in REALLY good shape
3. A Mac Pro
4. A new awesome uke
5. Brisingr
6. A Dyson Vacuum
7. Beretta Model 87 Target
8. A new iPod

Funk

So, I've been in a funk. I don't know why or how to snap out of it... but, there you go.

Writing this blog today, I find myself thinking about Hawaii and feeling homesick. I MISS HAWAII... so much. I miss the ocean, the mountains, the beach, the plants, a cool ocean breeze... and the people. I miss fresh fish and rice at every meal. I miss taking walks along the ocean front and being able to go to the beach whenever i want to. i miss feeling a connection with the land around me, and feeling the aloha that seeps out of the people. i miss the music... and the feeling of belonging. I'm going home in 6 days and I can't wait. I want to see my mom and dad. I want to see my brothers and their families. I want to see my little bro Sean, who gets home from his mission in Japan tomorrow. I CANT WAIT TO GO HOME!!!

Some people may see this and wonder: Why dont you just move back to Hawaii? (Then you wouldn't miss it! DUH!)

A simple question with a complicated answer. St. George is a protection for me... a way to not only keep out of trouble, but to stay away from the people who I allow to continually hurt me and be-little me. Hawaii is beautiful, but rest assured that there are bad people there. Just because its paradise doesn't mean that there isnt DRAMA... boy is there drama. I know there is drama... if i moved back today it would be counter productive to me 'getting over' a lot of the crap that happened before i left. so, a visit is good enough.

My dad (who is AMAZING) keeps pressuring me to move home, but i don't think he KNOWS how bad things were for me before we moved. I just handle going back for good right now. Eventually i WOULD like to go back and live there, but until i feel ready, i'll be in the mainland. (aka the continental united states...)

Anyways. can't wait to go home. :)

could i POST more tags???

Wow!!! Lol... I noticed that the last 3 posts I've done have been tags. ;) Lol. I guess I should give you a little more than that. So, life lately. It’s been... like ketchup in a bottle... coming in dollops. At first it seems slow, but then a whole bunch of time passes in what seems like the blink of an eye. I've recently tried to be more social... stepping outside the realm of my one 'best' friend Susi (with whom I spend most of my time...) and testing the friendship waters around me. I’ve found something strange about the people here in St. George... even though I am Karyn... I’m seen here as Susi's friend. I’m not upset or surprised by this... Susi is a very popular person here for good reason, but I feel like the friendships I have tried to formulate here are basically built upon the fact that they know Susi and are therefore humoring me with friendship. Maybe that’s just the paranoid, untrusting, skeptical side of me coming out, but a lot of the time it DOES feel like that.

I have, however, found a little pod of friends with whom I’ve attached myself to. The only problem is that they are all leaving in 4 days to go on missions. BTW, if any of you read this, I’m going to miss you like crazy!!!

So now the question: what will I decide to do with my life? Friendwise, I know that spending all my time with Susi and her family is a no. Not only do they need their privacy, Susi and I are are COMPLETELY opposite in basically everything.

I guess I’m just tired of being an afterthought for people. I want to be like the Karyn most of you know and love. :)

ps- I had the funnest time last night at a spooky movie marathon I went to last night. We watched Poltergeist, I Am Legend, and 1408... I’ve decided that scary movies, while disturbing, are overrated... we also got to have a jam session. It was rad, and my friend Wyatt graced me with his impressive musical 'skillz'. His music is awesome. I told him he needs to get a cd out. I could totally be his pr manager. ;)

Hmm... maybe that’s what I should be shooting for... pr or something similar. I think I could be good in a job like that. Hmm... maybe life will steer me in that direction.

Book Tags...

Well, I've chosen to be tagged by my friend Latu... This tag looked so awesome, I had to do it...

Rules: Get the book that's on your nightstand (or whatever you happen to be reading).Open it to page 56 and find the 5th sentence. Post the next couple of sentences on your blog, along with these instructions. Do not go and find your favorite book; it has to be the one you are reading now! Tag five other people to do the same.

The Book:

I am currently re-reading Sabriel by Garth Nix. SUCH A GREAT BOOK... Seriously. I recently lent the series to my roommate, and it inspired me to read them again. I've never read books quite like Mr. Nix's Abhorsen Trilogy. It does deal with death... (read the quote below) however, I feel like I've been around death a lot in my life, and stuff like that doesn't bother me as much as it used to. It's not morbid or gross by any means, but just SUPER interesting and well written.

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The Quote:

"I have a daughter almost your age," he said quietly. "Back in Corvere, with my wife. I would not let her cross into the Old Kingdom."
Sabriel met his gaze, and her eyes were not the uncertain, flickering beacons of adolescence.
"I am only eighteen years old on the outside," she said, touching her palm against her breast with an almost wistful motion. "But I first walked in Death when I was twelve."

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Seriously, and amazing read. Pick it up!!!

I tag: Anyone who ventures to read this blog.

Home Tag

This is a tag from Sara... just something silly... i actually don't have pics of my new place... so enjoy these close-to representations of my house... ;)

#1 Fridge-

Semi-accurate of what my fridge actually looks like... except I have soy milk, and not regular milk...

#2 Laundry Room-

This is a semi-accurate pic... almost looking like what my laundry room looks like... I actually LOVE doing laundry... it smells so deliciously good...

#3 What the kids are doing now:

OKAY!!! well, no kids as of yet... but this is what they are doing...

#4 Favorite Shoes:

Slippahs... they're the only way to fly!!! :)

#5 A closet-

I am a very clean person most of the time... My closet has to be 'just so'... its my OCD...

#6 My favorite room-

My favorite room is the Hawaiian Section of the Bishop Museum in Hawaii...

#7 A self portrait-

Me this past winter... scraping ice off the parking lot...

#8 Kitchen sink-

I LOVE this sink!!!!!! I wish I had one like it...

#9 Bathroom-

Semi-looks like my bathroom... at least its the same decor... ;)

#10. Where I want to be RIGHT NOW:

Hawai'i... My home state... ;) This is a pic of a town called Waimea (or Kamuela) on the big island.

from sara's blog

SOOOOOO,
I don't really have anything in particular to say... except i have a HUGEMUNGOUS headache... Maybe I have a tumor... (it's not a too-mah!) anyways, I stole this from Sara... Partly because I really am bored and need something to keep me awake until i end the day, and also because it's just fun!

( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school-- [oh so many times... i missed more than half of my jr. year in hs...]
( ) Been to Canada
(x) See someone die-- [3 people to be exact]
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been to Florida
(x) Been on a plane-- [only to and from hawai'i]
(x) Been lost-- [its a constant state of mind...]
( ) Been on the opposite side of the country
( ) Gone to Washington, DC
(x) Swam in the ocean-- [the whole first half of my life... plus some]
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers-- [good times]
(x) Recently colored with crayons-- [i'm obsessed with crayons!!! [(krayon)]> ]
(x) Sang Karaoke-- [every friday night baby!]
( ) Paid for a meal with coins only-- [no meals, only gas... ;)]
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls-- [a cop got sent to our house. Note To Self: don't prank call the popo...]
( ) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sunrise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles-- [i know that duck... ;) lol...]
(x) Gone Ice skating-- [i suck, but it's fun]
(x) Been skinny dipping outdoors-- [the ocean in fact. ;)]
(x) Been so bored at work and desperate for something to blog that you steal a tag from someone else's blog...-- [thanks Sara... I too am a bored person at work]

Okay! There you go! Thanks Sara... oh what I could accomplish if I would work at work! ;)

love

Okay... I know I’m probably just an emotional mess right now, but I feel the need to talk about love...

I know... LOVE. How lame... pathetic... and whatever... it’s my blog, so I'll write what I want to! :)

I’ve fallen in love with 3 guys in my lifetime. The first was a high school thing... sort of stupid and immature... I think I was more in love with the idea of him rather than HIM. I’m not even sure that qualifies as love... maybe just infatuation. Yeah. Well, it ended badly in any case. He ended up being a jerk off that wouldn't get over it, and I feel like I’m somehow still suffering repercussions (sp?) for his immaturity. I told him I liked him like... twice I think... and he freaked out. He told me he didn’t like me like that, and I was done... but for some reason, he thought I was obsessed... I guess it all comes down to high school boys being insufferably over confident, and my tendency to know exactly what I want and going for it with abandon.

Number two was a firefighter from Australia. He was hott and older, and I was a year past high school graduation, and rebellious. I met him at a bar… he walked me down the street and back, and we talked. He was in town for a week, and we spent the rest of the week together. We kept it alive with phone calls and emails. He was sweet, sensitive, and surprisingly intuitive. It all happened in a 6 month span. He took more time off that he should have, and came to Hawaii. I was naïve and thought I could accept his flaws and live with myself for making stupid decisions. We were engaged… and he was mad that I didn’t tell my parents that I wanted to marry a tattooed, smoking, drinking fireman from Aussie land. It also ended badly. Lol… I probably should have been nicer about it, but I realized I wanted more.

Lastly there was … I’ll call him Jim. Jim and I immediately clicked together. All it was was me walking into a room, and he and I were electric. I spent every waking moment with him. It was a dream… and it was… amazing. He was everything I wanted… everything I needed. If I was fire, he was water… we were so alike and so different. I don’t know exactly why things turned out the way it did… Jim was always a mystery to me. Whenever I thought I knew how to figure him out, he would shift, change, plunge me back into the dark. I think Jim and I would have been exactly like that… water and fire. Him always playing cool… smooth. Me being the fire... I am really a spitfire… ;) Maybe he knew that we couldn’t/wouldn’t work out. I caught him with another girl. I never understood why… I tried to escape him. He made me go to his wedding. Another girl. He still calls me too… Why can’t guys just leave well enough alone?

I’m sitting in my office at work right now. I can feel how cold it is outside, but I don’t really want to put my jacket on. Typing is relieving the stress of the emotional onslaught that just happened… I was reading a story my friend wrote… the first or second draft actually. It was fantastically poignant and lovely… It's about two friends (Ben and Alice) that ended up together. I hate to think it, but I don’t know if I’ll ever have that kind of love. It seems like every ‘relationship’ (however loosely applied) I’ve had turns out badly. I’ve had guys tell me that I have unrealistic expectations… that I’m distant, that I’m clingy, that I’m too NICE (how can someone be too nice?) that I care too much.

What is love if you can’t express the emotions that are inside of you? I’ve had boyfriends that have gotten married TWO weeks after I broke up with them? Is something wrong with me? Am I somehow unmarriable? (is that a word? … oh well…) I know that things with the ‘loves of my life’ have turned out for the better… but what about me??? Every one of them is now married… and I’m still single. What does that mean? Or does it mean nothing? Will I get what I want in the end? The companionship and electricity? The priesthood and the attraction? When it comes for me will I know it, or will I miss it?

Love is such a strange emotion. There is nothing else that can dually hurt and heal… But when it really happens will it hurt?

Politics & more...

Hey everyone!!!

How have you all been???

Well... let me start with the fact that I'm a little disappointed in women in general. Why can't we see what we're WORTH??? Life is too short to second guess yourself. YOU are a SPECIAL, BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL person and YOU DESERVE THE BEST in life. I don't care who you are... you do. NEVER let anyone tell you differently.

This world seems to be here to tell us we aren't good enough. You're not pretty enough. You aren't rich enough. It IS NOT true! You are unique. You have a purpose! You are beautiful!

Whatever you do, DON'T LISTEN TO THE WORLD. It will never be enough if you give in to the media and social pressures. It will never stop unless you CHOOSE to make it stop. You can be your OWN person. Take back your life and LIVE it for yourself! Live it for your family! Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Live it the best way you can. Don't listen to people or the judgments they have for you. It doesn't matter what they think. Just do your best. That’s all anyone can ask of you or that you can ask of yourself.

Why can't women get along??? Why do we constantly have to backstab each other and be conniving? Why can’t we lift each other up and come together with mutual respect for each other? Aren’t you tired of constantly trying to ‘one up’ the other? Isn’t it time to just LOVE one another??? You don’t have to bring the people around you down. LIFT THEM UP!!! Have respect for who they are and what they’ve achieved!

Everyone in the world is dealt a different hand. We all have different trials to go through… different circumstances. We should be able to go to each other for help and support without the worry that it will be rubbed in our face.

I’m so tired of fighting against the current. If I want to date a guy, don’t try to steal him away. If I try to become successful, don’t sabotage me.

Okay… vent over.

I work at the Chamber of Commerce here, and we have a luncheon each Wednesday. Today, we had a political forum for candidates running for office this year. I was amazed at the ‘mudslinging’ that occurred. That’s something I truly detest about politics. If you want my vote, don’t tell me how bad the other guy is. Tell me how awesome you are and why I should vote for you.

Eh… I’m so done with all the politics in the air. I feel like it’s suffocating me.

I’m outtie…

Sweet!

Whats up y'all???

Well, I've had the weirdest weekend... it's been really... I don't know what it's been like actually. I don't know if it was weird or not... just revealing I guess. Sorry. I'm really confused still. I found out that I have EXTREMELY high blood pressure... which explains a lot. I need to take care of myself better. I thought I would be immune to all of my families genetic ailments. Apparently I'm not. I just wish I was more motivated to be better, to take care of myself better... to become more healthy and do it willingly.

I have also been trying to stay away from the 'marriage pity party' that has been going around. Apparently a lot of people are thinking they will never be able to get married. I'm not ready for marriage right now. I've always had VERY strict rules about when and where and who and why i would get married. Not really rules... I guess a better description would be wants. things i want to accomplish before i get married. A few of them are: pay off all my debts, be financially stable, maybe go on a mission, etc. This is stuff I want to do because I think that it's unfair to marry someone and make them take on your financial status... esp if its not good. I am a VERY independent person, so I would like to be able to support not only myself, but my family as well. I know that sounds unrealistic, but coming from a family where a lot of times we were near poverty, I hate to think that I wouldn't be able to afford baby milk or diapers, etc.

I watched General Conference this weekend and was EXTREMELY impressed with what the church leaders spoke about. I really liked Uchtdorf, Wirthin, and Monson's talks. They were AWESOME!

I cant wait to go to Hawai'i. One of these days I'll move back, but for now I'm doing the best I can with what I have.

TAG!

I am: ready to go to Hawai'i!!!
I think: life is too short to have to worry about health
I know: i need to take better care of myself
I am: working... as usual.
I want: to become the person i should...
I have: enough for now.
I dislike: stupidity.
I miss: my real friends
I fear: spiders, the dark, and losing my family
I feel: relaxed
I hear: the usual goings on in the office...
I smell: delicious
I crave: lobster and/or sushi
I cry: when i miss my fam-bam.
I search: for peace and forgiveness
I wonder: whats in store for the future
I regret: being too timid
I wish: i had an awesome car
I love: HAWAII! :)
I care: about what matters
I always: am down for a party!
I worry: that i'll never find out what i want in life
I am not: in the mood to put up with peoples crap today...
I remember: the good times
I believe: in the goodness of people
I sing: all day long usually...
I don’t: get why people don't think they have to play by the rules
I argue: when i know im right
I write: short stories and poetry
I win: when i focus on what i REALLY want
I lose: myself in the crowd sometimes
I listen: to anyone who needs to just talk
I don’t understand: people who don't have common sense or courtesy
I can usually be found: zoning out in my own world...
I need: motivation
I forget: everything
I am happy: most of the time :)

Provo

Hello Everyone!!!
Sorry it's been so long... I have been INSANELY busy...
So, this past weekend I went up to Provo to visit with my cousins. It's always nice to see them. They're crazy and loud and sometimes obnoxious, but I love them. I get up there Thursday, and came back Sunday.
A couple of things I noticed about Utahns...

#1 They all SUCK at driving. I don't know what it is, but something makes people here think that it's okay to be a jerk off whilst driving. Case and point: Someone decided to do a U-turn in the right hand lane. Idiot.

#2 All the girls tend to look alike. Clothes, hair styles, make-up... they're like clones. blonde scary clones.

#3 Utah really IS beautiful! I never really noticed it until this trip. I was in awe of how beautiful it is. Everywhere I looked was lika a painting waiting to happen. I drove by the Manit Temple, and had to do a double take because it looked so much like it wasn't real.

It really was a beautiful drive. I was sad that I didn't think to bring a camera with me. While up north, I went to Salt Lake on Friday and Saturday. Friday I got to go to the Clark Planetarium. The last time I was at the planetarium was when it was still called the Hansen Planetarium, and I was in 5th grade. I have to say that I was extremely impressed. We got to watch a 3-D Imax movie... my first... and It was AMAZING. I also got to go to my favorite food joint: Grove Market Deli. If you like sandwiches, Grove's is the place for you. I highly recommend the Deluxe and the Meatball... but everything is GREAT. We also went to IKEA... I love it. Well, I love the stuff I got. I think its irritating that you can't just walk in and find what you want. you have to go through the displays...

Saturday I went to a ward activity with my cousin Leo, who has recently been called to Relief Society President. It was sort of lame, but Leo's housemate, Azul and I played this awesome game where we named all the people and gave them super powers. I think the best ones I did were Paco- the hulk, and I forgot the name, but his power was that he turned into a woman every other Thursday and Friday. Afterwards, we went to the General Relief Society Meeting. It was AWESOME! I've never been to the Conference Center before, and I was amazed at how big it was. The speakers were fantastic... but the best part for me was the fact that Sister Merilee Webb was the choir director. If you don't know Sister Webb, you're in for a treat. She was my choir teacher in college, and she taught me so much. I was overflowing with the love and respect I have for her. She's the person who (by example and just sharing her special personality and spirit with me) basically pulled me out of my rebellious stage. She was the person to show me that I can be a righteous, spiritually minded woman and still retain who I am. I was totally happy to see her. After the GRSM, we went to this cool restaurant called the One World Cafe. Its a restaurant that has the most amazing concept behind it. Here's the link for their website. Check it out!!! http://www.oneworldeverybodyeats.com/

Sunday, I drove down to Spring City to see my other cousin, Mindy and her family. Again, I wa struck by the beauty of this state. I think a lot of people take it for granted.

All in all, it was a great trip. Thanks Leo and Mindy for being the awesomest cousins ever!!!

ha-zaa!

hello everyone! long time no talk... well, how are things out there in the world? things here in st. george are the same... summer is still hot, the cicadas are out and as loud as ever... and i'm relatively happy whith how things are going. i started a new blog with my friend susi called 'dining in dixie.' you should check it out. we critique the restaurants in the area. i figured who better to be a food critic, than two polynesian girls? lol... so i'll prob be on there more often then here. :) thanks for reading!!!

and the wheels go round and round...

HELLO!!!

Sorry, I know I've been lame in keeping up with this... but I have been WAY busy.

I know... I can here all 3 of you sigh in exasperation.

SORRY!!! :)

Anywho... life has been... crazy lately. my parents moved back to hawaii... and i decided to stay in utah. its cool. i miss my family like CRAZY but im glad to have some independence.

other than that, work has been getting more and more hectic. i work here at the chamber of commerce, and let me tell you, it stressful. I do ALL of the publications here... so basically i do all the graphic designing. its SUPER crazy... BUT its redeeming quality is that its WAY fun, i meet a lot of people, AND i work with awesome peeps... well, most of them are awesome. we do a lot of events and such and its been a lot of late hours and endless design crap lately. i almost feel like im losing all of my creativity sometimes. like everything i make looks the same. :( no worries... after june i'll be living life on easy street for a couple of weeks.