Long time coming.

Wow.

I know. It's been FOREVER. Truthfully...I haven't really had a lot to say. I mean, how many times should I go over how tough school is, or how frustrating work can be? I've been trying to be more positive, so I haven't wanted to blog about that stuff.

However, I also haven't really had a lot of good going on either. Until this last week.

So it started out like any other week. I went to work...and was working on school.

On Tuesday, I made the decision t start Weight Watchers. I have been looking for a way to discipline myself, and it has been good so far. :)

On Wednesday...well. It was an interesting day. I went into work and started on some projects. Sporadically throughout my day I'll take mini breaks to refresh my perspective. These breaks can include Facebook, surfing design sites, downloading fonts... you know. Whatever I feel like doing.

Anyway. I was on Facebook, and I get a friend request from a guy from my hometown. He was good friends with my older bro, so I was like--awesome. So, I added him. In 5 mins he was messaging me, and asked me if I was married or dating someone. Within 30 mins, he had told me he had a crush on me in high school, and had given me his number and asked me to call him.
 I'm not going to lie. It sort of freaked me out.

Don't get me wrong. He was nice when we were younger, and I'm sure he's still a nice guy. I guess I'm just not used to guys being so direct with me. I don't know if I'll ever call him... mostly because I have a lot of stuff to sort out in my life before I get into any relationship. ALso--I don't really know him that well, so it would be hard for me to even consider dating. AND--my brothers told me some stuff about guys that has stuck with me through the years. Anyway.

I was flattered, but it also got me thinking. Where am I at in the "relationship" arena? Am I ready to get in the game, or am I still nursing that "old injury" and benching myself? Have I outgrown the game? Have I let myself go?

I guess that is really what I have been thinking about lately. When am I going to take control of my life again? When will simply "getting by" not be enough? I think that I'm starting to take a positive move forward.

I'm just taking life one step at a time.

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This song has been stuck in my head. Not applicable to anything really...just a nice song. :)

How Do I Live
by: LeAnn Rimes


How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?

And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

How do I live without you?

How do I live without you baby?