Aloha!

Life is so weird. I seem to be floating along without a purpose. It's actually pretty nice. Nothing really to stress about other than work and school... but that's become sort of second nature. lol. Anywho...

I sprained my ankle. I went bull-riding and was thrown off. I'll be fine, but the bull got the worst of it I think. lol. Actually... the real story is sort of boring. I was walking down the stairs and slipped. Luckily I didn't roll my ankle or anything, so there aren't any broken bones... not that there would be. I have strong "Polynesian woman" bones that are impervious to injury. ;) Or as my mom calls them--big bones. They really are pretty big. I know I'm "overweight" but my bone structure is large and sturdy. I'm like an oak tree... lol. Have you ever seen the newest Hairspray? My favorite line is:

"Who wants a twig, when you can climb a whole tree?"

Ha ha ha ha!!! So classic.

I DJ-ed my first dance here in St. George. Aside from the irritating and incessant requests for slow songs (which I DETEST playing at dances...) it was super good and fun. I had a great crowd of dancers, and even got one of Susi's famous interpretive dances in there. It was way fun.

Not much else to report. I'm going to Page this weekend (hopefully) to see my grandma. Other than that, life is GOOD! :)

I leave you with the lyrics for a song that I all but forgot about. It's an oldie but goodie...

Love You Down - INOJ

It never really mattered too much to me.
That you were just too damned old for me.
All that really mattered was you were my boyfriend.
And babe, that's all that mattered to me.

Let me love you down, even if it takes all night.
Let me love you down, you know it's gonna be so right.

Remember when you drove me home from work.
I love the way you kiss me bye. Mmmm....
All of your friends think I'm just too young for you.
So tell em I can do what girls their age can do. Oh babe ...

Let me love you down, even if it takes all night.
Let me love you down, you know it's gonna be so right.
Let me love you down, even if it takes all night.
Let me love you down, you know it's gonna be so right. Oh....

It never really mattered too much to me.
That they were just too damn blind to see .
As long as I could love you down, baby just be my man.
That's all that mattered to me.

Let me love you down, even if it takes all night.
Let me love you down, you know it's got to be so right.
Let me love you down, Ooooooo
Let me love you down, I know, I know, I could.
Love you, down, down, Ooooooo
Love you down, down,Know,Know,Know,Know,Know,Know,Know,
Let me love you, I wanna love you, Down.
Let me love you, I wanna love you, Down babe.

Just be Honest.

Do you ever just feel under appreciated? or I guess the word I'm looking for is USED.

Holy crap! It has been happening to me for the past two years. I thought that I could put up with it, but when I look at people smiling at me lately, all I see is a baring of teeth.

I hate feeling like...well, like I'm being used. It feels almost like people only keep me around because no one else is willing to do anything, or that people are telling me (especially lately)... "We keep you around because you fill up space."

This is why I want to move away from St. George. I feel like everyone is so phony all the time. All I'm asking for is a little genuine emotion. ANYTHING genuine will do... anger, spite, happiness, friendliness... I don't care what it is. I'm just tired of feeling like I live in a town of mannequins. No one is real. It's so irritating.

I have NEVER felt so...ARGH! I don't even know the word. Insulted? IDK. (which is making me more irritated.) I'm tired of people 'tolerating' me. STOP PATRONIZING ME. I don't need your pity or your "good will."

If you hate me, tell me. If you want me to leave, tell me. I'm so tired of pretending to care.