CH-Ch-Ch-Changes!

Okay, so I promise that I will get to homework after I blog and then head home.

I just needed to blog! :) lol.

So, I'm finally back into the groove with work, school, and LIFE! I can't tell you how much of a relief it has been to be able to just live my life again. I felt like I was lost for a while. Thank goodness I'm BACK! :) It feels awesome.

Life is funny. Without trying to sound too Gump-ish...you really never know what you are going to get out of it. I rarely "know" where my life is headed... but I have a vague idea as to where I would like it to be. Truthfully, I have been grateful for the past four years. Living away from my family has been hard--being basically alone (with regard to having family) has taught me to rely on myself, but it has also taught me that even though I get irritated with them, I still love them. :)

A lot of changes are happening with me...a lot of those changes are happening within myself. I am learning that being an individual doesn't mean that I have to make bad or wrong choices. I have learned that choosing to be me doesn't mean that I have to shun the opinions of others. I am also learning that I can't expect everything of someone without giving of myself.

On a larger scale, I am looking to move up and out of my current situation. I don't know when or how the changes will happen, but they are coming. It's exciting to finally feel like I am starting my life. I have been floating along without really wanting to add input into my own life.

I know that sounds weird... I don't really know how to express it in words... but floating really captures what it feels like. I haven't been an active participant in the direction or goals of my life. I have taken what other people say are good and tried to make them MY good things. I feel like I'm waking up and FINALLY realizing that I need to get going! lol. So, I think that is what you all can expect from me. I'm going to

I think that is the most important thing for me right now. I need to move forward and be positive about life! :) Things are AWESOME. I just need to realize that and share it with the people round me!!!! ;)

A wrap up for Hawaii... it was amazing. For the first time since I have moved to St. George, I didn't want to leave. It was interesting. I totally love Hawaii. I was able to spend a TON of time with my family. The reunion was so amazing. I was able to witness the talent that is my family. They are all so talented. They all have the potential to make a REAL change in the world with their talents too. It was cool to be in the presence of such wonderful people. I am so grateful that I was able to go and participate!

Okay. Song for the day. :) I hope you like it. It's a GREAT one!!!


Dream On
by: Aerosmith

Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by, like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Yeah, I know nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life
Is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
From sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laugh, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away, yeah

Yeah, sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laugh, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until the dream come true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dream comes true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laugh, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laugh, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

Family Dayo!!!

ALOHA!

How are all of you?? Good I hope. :)

So, I am in Hawaii and have been for a little over a week. Let me tell you... it has been pretty crazy. My family always has dramas... but that's why I love them. :) I'm glad that I made the trip, and that I still have a little less than a week here. :)

Things that I have enjoyed this trip over ones in the past: I have spent a lot more time with a large array of family. I also have been able to spend a lot of time with my nieces and nephews. :) It has been AMAZING... and reminds me of why I love Hawaii. :)

There will be more to tell later... but for now, I have to get going. :)

"Hawaii Aloha"

Lyrics: Reverand Lorenzo Lyons
Music: James McGranahan

VERSE 1: E Hawai'i e ku'u one hanau e Ku'u home kulaiwi nei 'Oli no au i na pono lani ou E Hawai'i, aloha e HUI: E hau'oli na 'opio o Hawai'i nei 'Oli e! 'Oli e! Mai na aheahe makani e pa mai nei Mau ke aloha, no Hawai'i VERSE 2: E ha'i mai kou mau kini lani e Kou mau kupa aloha, e Hawai'i Na mea 'olino kamaha'o no luna mai E Hawai'i aloha e (repeat hui) VERSE 3: Na ke Akua e malama mai ia 'oe Kou mau kualona aloha nei Kou mau kahawai 'olinolino mau Kou mau mala pua nani e (repeat hui)

Confusion *(edited)

EDIT:
This post has been edited. :) Enjoy the condensed version.

Hypocrisy is a HUGE pet peeve for me. ESPECIALLY when you make a big deal out of something like that, and then just turn on it and do the opposite of what you said you weren't going to do.

ANYWAYS.

Let's move on, shall we?

I get to go to Hawaii in three days! :) WOO HOO!

I am SOOOOOOOOOO excited to go. We are having a huge family reunion, and I can't WAIT. It is going to be so awesome! :)

I really miss my family, so it will be really good to go and see them. There are a lot of things that I need to work out with my family, so I'm looking forward to that.

I think that I just REALLY need a break from St. George. I have really been better over the past 6 months, but I do need to take a break from things here.

I forgot how much DRAMA that can come up when you re-integrate yourself into a close group of friends. Don't get me wrong...I really love having close friends, but I don't miss the craziness, trust games, eggshells to walk on, etc.

All in all, a good productive week, but I have a lot to do before I leave for Hawaii.

Anyway. Song for the week is one that I have been practicing for the reunion. A GREAT song...AND if you are a friend of mine on facebook... you can see my dad singing it.

You Make Me Feel So Young
Performed by: Frank Sinatra

You make me feel so young.
You make me feel so "Spring has sprung",
And every time I see you grin
I'm such a happy individual.

The moment that you speak
I wanna go play hide-and-seek.
I wanna go and bounce the moon
Just like a toy balloon.

You and I are just like a couple of tots
Runnin' across the meadow
Pickin' up lots of forget-me-nots.

You make me feel so young.
You make me feel there are songs to be sung,
Bells to be rung, and a wonderful fling to be flung,
And even when I'm old and gray
I'm gonna feel the way I do today
'Cause you make me feel so young.

You make me feel so young.
You make me feel so "Spring has sprung",
And every time I see you grin
I'm such a happy individual.

The moment that you speak
I want to go and play hide-and-seek.
I want to go and bounce the moon
Just like a toy balloon.

You and I are just like a couple of tots
Runnin' across the meadow
Pickin' up lots of forget-me-nots.

You make me feel so young.
You make me feel there are songs to be sung,
Bells to be rung,  wonderful fling to be flung.
And even when I'm old and gray
I'm gonna feel the way I do today
'Cause you  - you make me feel so young.

You make me feel so young.
You make me feel so young.
Ooo - you make me feel so young.